Thursday, July 03, 2008
i browsed through a few places today and i noticed how fast life has moved on without me. lols. not that that has particularly bothered me. im not a loner, i just like solitude. i like twoness and aloneness and all that zazooka. how in my absence places have been visited, food has been eaten and smiles have been lighted up on faces. that does not bother me. are you crazy? what am i, you?

what struck me was how as people started to grow, they become more and more moulded into society to such a point that you really cant differentiate the people you know from the disgusting ratfucks that stroll on the streets. i thought i was pretty particular about the people that i know and go out with but suddenly im not so sure anymore. everyone seems to be part of an army that i am not a part of.

i am feeling what ive always felt. that im simply a class ahead of a lot of people. so shoot me. im glad i came to millennia where there are a lot more people who are a lot more passionate about a lot more real causes. like, poverty, oil prices, and child abuse. im glad i have met people who have gone through more severe hurt in their lives which opened their eyes and minds and perspectives of things. im glad i have met people who are different and smart and are able to talk to me about things like current reads and such.

its not that i dont belong. i am not you. i dont need to belong. i am perfectly happy where i am. with my cats, my books, and my family. friends are kept to a bare minimum. being with iskandar has shown me the wisdom of life.

mixing with some of the superficial idiots in sch0ol has taught me humility, and somewhat, a different facet of human character.

i have met real people in my lifetime. im disappointed that the people i thought i knew are not.

riahh ranted at 2:37:00 PM