Friday, March 16, 2007
its march and i have not blogged. nearly half a month passed. and hell yeah, so many things has happened. but they are insignificant. day to day occurences that happen all the time - to anyone, anytime. why would it happening to me be any different? mmm. maybe the way i receive it, accept it and respond to it differs. but no matter. they're not important.

i watched closer today. and i think it was a very lousy movie. no, the directing and the acting was excellent of course. and you know an actress's good if you really hate her character in the movie. thats what i believe in, anyway. but yes, i still hated the movie. what a lousy story to begin with. could you, would you, hurt anyone like that, ever? or am i the only love-starved fool in this world? they'd play each other, four of them, and then suddenly if you're unlucky, you're the one that's fucked.

no that sounds very juvenile, i realised. i just dont understand how someone, anyone, can be so detached in a split second? im sorry, i love you and i dont want to hurt you. well guess what, buster? you already did. natalie portman can live with a lie? she can make love to jude law, pretend she's happy, pretend that everything's ok and then she turns around and tells him, quite blankly - i dont love you anymore. you want the truth, you have it. now you can hate me.

no, that still sounds very juvenile. the point is, i hated the movie. i hate julia roberts and the ease in which she moves from one guy to the next. her transfer of guilt from one man to the next. she thinks she doesnt deserve to be happy so she sleeps with a man to ease off her guilt. why? why, does she do that? carnal hunger? everyone has that. but at the expense of the person who loves you? you would do that?

what is the world like today? you hanker after love, and then you find it, and then at some point in time, you realise you dont want it anymore? you mean its just nice having someone like that around, someone you can turn to when you're upset, but really, you just want him/her by your side cause you need someone there when shit happens and the world turns its back.

you'd use someone who sincerely loves you.

i think you suck. and you're a loser.

it still sounds juvenile. but never mind. i really hated the movie. i really cant understand why there's so much hurt everywhere. how you could make a mistake and even think that an apology would suffice. how you could hurt someone and still be around, hoping you can make things better.

because you cant. someone loved you. thought the world of you. cared for you. was there for you. sacrificed for you. someone fucking loved you. but you hurt her. and that one hurt can never be properly healed. you're a monster. and i wish someone would tell you that.

riahh ranted at 12:27:00 PM