Tuesday, December 12, 2006
i looked in the mirror today and called out to the stranger that stared back at me.

there were many times i wanted to blog when i felt strongly about something. but always, i never took the effort to do it. i wanted to rant and cuss the idiot who put a chair on a cat's paw and sat on it and laughed his heart away when the cat yowled in pain. fuckers like that should be put through the same thing. jail? what jail? you mean a few years in jail would suffice? i think jails are useless places. you should treat criminials with pain.

like some of the arab countries today. if you steal, off goes your right hand on a friday. you'd be stoned to death on a friday for raping a woman or sth. friday's a holy day. maybe they'd go to heaven somehow after going through mortal punishment.

but that wasnt what i wanted to talk about. ive stopped knowing what i wanted to say a long time ago. today was a good day at least. i met her for a movie and we had lunch. i was upset and guilty cause my mom took the time off to go with me to make my new bank account. and then i met her family for a bit of shopping. and then they invited me for dinner. her family's so cuteeeeeeee! *squeals.

but parents are getting suspicious..

why the fuck is shan wee speaking like a fucktard on the MOS party advertisment on radio? grrr.

work at borders has been great so far. i like my job there ((: and my pay is pretty ok so i dont have much to complain. i served quite a few celebrities. borders rock lah please. most of all i enjoy dinners and late night party tupperware with hafeez. hahaha. that guy is such a retard. he says its my face. the reason why he cant stop laughing :D

i think its not really nice of her to speak of best friend like that. considering that she's not really from MI and all. i mean so she's worked with him but.. spreading the stuff abt him around is really a bit unethical. oh wells. if she's like that.. i havent seen her kind for some time now. you know, the kind who makes friends with everyone and anyone. she's just so fake sometimes.

i like naked emotions. they make me smile.

i do have my down days. and when i cant seem to muster up the energy to blog. i do a mental dump. im sure everyone has their own mental dumps. or maybe.. its just me. like how she always says that im weird. hahaha. anyway. dont you have a certain imaginary place in your mind that you always visit whenever you're upset or a certain action that you're always doing?

my mental dump is a scene of my room with many many post-its on the wall. post-its scrawled with angsty angry words. words meant to hurt and cut deep. these are words i long to scream out and have people hear. but it'd just make matters worse. it takes a lot of energy to take it all in and keep it there until everyone's really gone.

i love my cats lah please. my baby girl is currently asleep on top of my cupboard ((:

baby baby. she makes my day. i cant go without hearing her voice for a day. we are getting upset with each other more often than not now. but we're ok after that.

people looked at me today. or so she says. i cant see anyway. hahaha. we got a free ice cream at gelatissimo :P and oh please. the guy who tried to flirt with us at the ice cream place was so lame. sighs. he tricked her into thinking that an ice cream sample cost 30 cents. heh. he claimed that just needed a few loose change for bus fare. OH PLEASE. what era already? no ezlink is it?

quite a few date for xmas. i need to start writing up my xmas list.

baby baby, please be mine.

riahh ranted at 11:24:00 PM