Thursday, November 23, 2006
i have started and ended my training at borders. on the first day, i thought borders was like the swiss bank of all bookstores. it probably still is. with the kind of service they provide the customers. top notch. only its being hindered by dumbfuck workers like us.

training was awesome with the few of us millennians. labina. hafeez. hidz. sufian. as well as vanessa seraphina margaret lim and jane. hahahaha. lunch and work. shelving and bitching about the top bestseller we need to talk abt kevin as well as assfucks like chang kee and assholics managers like horsey and nat. oh wells. its part and parcel of working life ((: its whether you have people on your side that matters.

it ended on a bad note. some misunderstanding over the cash registers. that fucked up idiot. if he ever works with me. he is never ever fucking touching that cash register. i have never made a mistake over my transactions and i probably never will.

subduded dinner at fish and co. where i got myself red in the face from drinking. liyi and kwan came to pick me up. then we met with pink who found me very disgusting i suspect. hahaha. then baby made me wait for her at ps. she took care of me ((:

what am i doing with her? sometimes i ask myself this and most times i dont see an answer. when we get upset i wont talk and after a while i'd be ok. if i have issues with my mom or family i wont talk abt it much. i'd just say whatever's "safe" and then i'd shut up. i dont turn to her for emotional support much cause im emotionally independent.

dont couples have some kind of.. something for each other? like support? you mean there are people who are together just because?

i saw this in my phone today:

96696236: Hey. I miss you.

i didnt write that. i know who did. and i know who it was meant for. if she still wants to think about her. if she's still so caught up with her why is she with me? why does she keep talking abt her as if she's the best thing thats ever happened? was and still is. doesnt she think what its doing to me each time she does that?

my family's really fucked up right now.

i really love my cats. and i'd do anything for them.

i feel fucking fat lah please.

perpetual disappointments

riahh ranted at 4:30:00 PM