Sunday, October 15, 2006
its funny how life has its own cruel ways of making you smile. at the expense of others. to close the heavy curtains and mask your embarrassment to the world and have people focus on the little drama unfolding on stage.

i am playing middleman to a futile relationship. he's already told me that he doesnt want to have anything to do with her anymore. and she's so hung up on things and she's getting all verbose and sarcastic. probably a front to her inner feelings and the usual rah-rah cliches. im getting a bit miffed. and my feathers are a little ruffled. but i can live with it. it is amusing to see her acting all verbose.

the answer is no. he doesnt want to have anything to do with her. and yes her talking to him will screw his life up even more.

so whats my embarrassment today? nothing much really. he asked me out. probably because he's got no one else to hang out with. ahh. i was ecstatic at first. and then rationality settled in. and then it was.. ok. so the point is that i always thought joachim was one of a kind. and then he came along. and i swear ive never met a guy who talks abt himself more than i talk abt myself.

its dkny this. zara that. quiksilver this. aldo that. ted baker here. ck there. and on and on and on. it was hilarious. listening to him ramble is like a stand up comedy. it never ends. but he does have the longest eyelashes. lols. hey i couldnt help noticing. and he smells funny. like weird funny.

so here's the embarrassing part. i called him weird and he didnt reply me. ouch. hahaha. and i called him a loser. and i said he was fat. but i was so out of it. so detached. im sure he found me boring. i found myself boring too. tripping over my words and all. oh i should stab myself.

where is iago when i need him?

wait. why do i need him anyway? i just felt like saying that. with that. uncannily. my mood and spirits have lifted. i am ready to face the world again. i have never found a bigger cartoon than him ((: i am disappointed yes. hahaha. but nevertheless. my marks and spencers truly decadent pure pleasure is awesome.

loves.

riahh ranted at 11:41:00 PM