Thursday, October 26, 2006
you make me shed tears like a wimpy shitfuck every single damned time.

im sick and tired of waiting. i hate being treated like a convenience. you call as and when you please and im to be made available whenever you need me.

you're turning me back to that vulnerable fuckface i was before i learnt to take control of my own life and make everyone hate me. i had this shield around me. it took a long time for me to build it. its strong. its handy. and no one can hurt me.

but you came along and you fucking break my defenses.

ive lost most of me. but im not going to let you have full control of me. i was a difficult person to be with. i still am a difficult person to be with. and im going to maintain that. you either learn to want all of me or none of it.

because i dont share. i hate sharing. im generous. i'll get it for you. but i wont.. fucking.. share.

i dont want to be a part of your other emofuck life. your emotional rollercoaster of shitass experiences. go be emo but dont tell me about it. stop ruining me. stop ruining me each time you tell me that there's yet another one who's there for you.

give me back my life you're stealing.

riahh ranted at 3:02:00 PM