Saturday, September 16, 2006
ten am this morning and after a harried msg i fell back to sleep unwittingly.

and then i had a dream. and it was a very.. weird dream. in a good sense. not a bad one.

it was a graduation ceremony. and i had no idea why my secondary school friends were inside. i remembered cindy jovita. i remembered calling her sth bad. i hoped it was slut. hahaha. it was in a hotel's function room. it was sunny. very sunny. and sunlight awashed the whole place in beautiful golden light. and they had maroon curtains by the window. it was a floor-to-ceiling affair.

we were playing some silly game. and suddenly. i wasnt there anymore. blurred images. but i remembered being very worried. i was in a shopping mall. and it was dark and there was no one around. and guess who came to my rescue? ((: jingsong. he was a very very nice person in my dream. he had a deep voice. and he looked at me when we talked. he was brusque and terse but he was nice. and he tried to help me find my way back.

he wasnt like the jingsong i know. he was someone different. someone i could fall in love with. he held my hands as we ventured across buildings and all. and he made sure i was ok. we reached a staircase and it was dark. and suddenly he disappeared. and for a long time i couldnt find him. i wanted to go back to my place and i wanted to find him. but i was lost. and i remembered crying.

i ran up and down streets trying to find the damned place. or someone. at last i saw two ladies. they were your average aunties you'd find at chinatown. and they said they'd help me. in my dream their faces were very defined. one was standing; the other sitting by the railing by the side of the curb. she was languid in her speech. but i wasnt impatient. i waited for her to help me. i remembered her imitating the sounds of a motorcycle and the sound of the car alarm when it goes off.

but they were sounds at the back of my mind. their faces were so clear. as she tried to explain. light started seeping in and soon it was daytime. its the kind of light that seems to travel so fast. the transition between 6.55 to 7 am. i looked up at recognised people's park complex ((: i turned to them and thanked them and said i know my way now. i hurried off and i turned back a last time to look at them and again i was struck by how clear their features are.

...

and then i woke up.

who are these people? is this the jingsong before he became like this? or is he the jingsong that he'll become? i guess they're important to me some way or other. cool right? i think its so cool. really.

oh and i think i made out with him in my dream. hahahaha :P

and i know i really cried because i woke up with tears on my face.

riahh ranted at 2:58:00 PM