Sunday, September 03, 2006
being with her has opened up my mind and eyes to things ive never known. maybe it has always been there. these.. things. but the mind doesnt accept what the eyes wish to see. the carnal hunger. the urgent hands. soft gentle kisses. nothing like the brutal kisses between two opposite sexes. gentle. unhurried. because they know that they have all the time in the world.

such pretty hands..

time. it waits for no man. but for two people girls in love. time is of no essence. because there is no start and end. no right nor wrong. everything feels right. everything feels just right. nothing matters anymore.

with that said. no im still not a lesbian ((:

but please do watch imagine me and you and lost and delirious. they're awesome. and while you're at it. do catch butterfly as well ((:

what is love? love is the highest point in heaven. and if you move.. if you move.. you'll fall. love isnt sex. it isnt money. it isnt a projection of whats real. it isnt a mirage. it just is. you cant be so naive as to pretend that you can classify love. because you cant.

i was angry on wednesday after school. and i think i hurt her when i refused to pick up her calls.

on thursday i felt alienated among people who were closest to me. i felt self conscious in my babydoll dress and i felt a thousand million eyes groping me. sakae sushi was love and everything was too much of a coincidence. money was spent carelessly and before i knew it i added new collections into my wardrobe. again.

friday night saw two pairs of feet making footprints in the soft sand. we sat on the beach and stared out at passing ships and we talked. it felt comfortable being with her. i had my arms around her and then we waded and i was scared because the monster seemed to loom ever nearer. she talked to me about coastal thingywhatsits. and i imagined a house falling from cliffs. now that was funny. she went home and ate a mountain and we laughed too loud. too much at rojak rolling to unopened doors.

we finished keynes' fucking theory ((: and im proud of her. and we're nearly done with unemployment. we had ugly chicken puffs and i had my regular iced cocoa. nothing beats a regular iced cocoa on a sunny satuday afternoon. i love starbucks. i do. and we had dinner at el patio. it was awesome. chicken fajitas and cheese quesadillas. oh and a lime margarita for her. i loved the washroom cause it had an old school tap.

day turned to night and the soft breeze of promise wafted our way. she nibbled endlessly on nachos and salsa. and she didnt finish her quesadilla. SO MEAN. she smothered it with guacamole and fed me. anything with guacamole is heaven. i think. heh. it was love. such a messy affair. but it was love.

upside down cheescake. yum.

next time i'll bring her to that quaint italian restaurant set far back into the corners of holland v. and after that we'll try the lebanese and turkish restaurant. we'll try every single fucking restaurant and even if im fat she'll just say im not.



overwhelmed by sheer food.



two happy people after an awesome dinner.



again ((:

i planned to jog today. i did. but i get so lazy when i think about having to get up and change and putting on a bra and socks and shoes. i'll run tmr. i promise. heh.

riahh ranted at 4:31:00 PM