Tuesday, September 05, 2006
i nearly died from mortal embarrassment in lit eight today.

i.. nearly.. died.

i have never felt so

fucking

embarrassed.

fuck them both. they have the same name.. almost. but still. making that mistake was so.. oh.. my.. fucking.. god. so.. fucking.. embarrassing.. ok? and i just had to scream roar the name out loud. great.

suddenly pretence isnt so fun anymore.

im feeling immensely down right now. i feel like he's going away from me. all i wanted was for him to be a part of my life. he doesnt have to be anyone special. just be someone i could call or gaze at without feeling like a guilty kid caught with a hand in the special cookie jar. i dont want him to go.

i want him to stay..

in my mind. my private sanctuary. no intrusion and privacy guaranteed. where no thoughts can penetrate and where all emotions are safely guarded and contained within the recesses of my mind. i dont knw why. why he's that important to me. but he needs to be there. i want him to be there. to stay and not go.

angel angel. wont you please stay? )):

im afraid. why is all thats left behind are wisps of you?

AIYA OK OK. PROMOS PROMOS PROMOS.

but still angel. you're always on my mind. even if i worry abt why you're going away. its still about you.

OK IM GOING OFF ALREADY LAHHHHHH.

ps : liyi i love you ((:

riahh ranted at 12:00:00 AM