Friday, September 29, 2006
the promos are here and apart from gp econs and european history. everything else is pretty much more or less crap. hahahaha.

last year i banked on econs solely. this year i shall bank on history and econs.

i cant believe how caught up i am on exams. i have neglected blogging and all forms of social contact. i havent gone online in weeks. im such a loser. hahaha.

im so worried for people. why cant they see that they're probably not gonna do well? i dont want people to leave. i like this tiny community. i like the people who piss me off so i can bitch about them. and i like the people i like. cause i get to shower them with love love love and more love. this exams is such a bitchass. people are putting in a lot of effort. i can see that.

i nearly died during lit one anyway. i dont know why im so afraid of asking meya if i could be excused to the washroom.

i think im the most efficient person in the whole school ok? hahaha. that rawks.

i had a panic attack on the morning of lit two. which was quickly resolved as i rushed down to school. i hate my nosey neighbour. why the hell cant she just keep her damned mouth shut and stop yakking for a minute? doesnt she see that other than her little pathetic kakis no one else really likes her? she gossips so much for crying out loud! super irritating and annoying.

exams are really taking the mickey out of me. i dont knw. i get so sensitive and so mean these days. i guess i was pretty mean to her yesterday. what with all the insensitive remarks and such. but she said it was ok. and when she called and talked to me in that tone of. i was so hurt and pissed and it fucking made me wonder what the hell i just did. and then she called and suddenly everything was ok. and she used patrick to try to.. what? make me feel worse or sth? well that was the last straw.

and then she called and we talked. and she cried on the phone. and i wished i had just left the phone switched off until today. but teaching her econs was bugging on my conscience and i couldnt just leave her like that. totally irresponsible cause she needs to pass this and i want her to get thru to next year.

sometimes i wonder if she really likes me. or if she's just.. i dont know. just playing around. i never know when she's serious or not. oh she got me a candybar! but thats not the point :P

i love exam periods because we talk. a lot ((: he msged me a few times and it was nice while it lasted. an unknowing game of cat and mouse. wonderful ((: but i was pissed with him a few times. and he amazes me so much. hahaha. his stupid antics make me so mad but it makes me like him more and more as well. its like. his imperfections are showing and it makes him so real. hee.

he laughed at jingsong when he came late for lit one and i wanted to shout at him to shut up. that it wasnt funny in the least. so fucking rude ok? i was fuming the whole paper. but ahh revenge is sweet ((: hahaha. he was trying to be what? funny or sth? he was still writing when meya said stop. and he got a dressing down from her. heh.

he threw the notes at me after econs. hahahahaha. what the hell was that?! it was so funny and shocking it completely reduced my ability to speak.

and he made fun of me yesterday after the paper. he smiled at me. its me me me ((: hahaha. probably nothing. cheap thrills as usual. but hey everyone needs a little distraction during exams. hahaha. so whose house is it? hurhurhur. omg just kill me. NOW. hahaha.

eww. so bimbotic.

ok so thats it. exams are bearable. but i feel crap when i dont study much for lit. i get to talk to him a lot ((: i get sensitive and i dont know what to do with her sometimes. sometimes i want to be more intimate but there are times when i just want to be alone.

tra la la. its a happy happy day.

riahh ranted at 12:23:00 PM