Monday, August 14, 2006
ohno.ohshit.its6.15!whydidntanyonewakemeupforschool?lateimlate!goingtobesolate.theregoesmythumpthump!
omgsooooocute!damn.shutupbitch.whywhynotjustlistentomeandshutthefuckup?sodoit
myway.justshutup. gosh.
icantdothis.ireallycantdothis.blush!icantstopblushing!whatswrongwithme?
youaresoignoringhim.ohmyohmy.itsnotthatiwantto.icanthelpit.
hemakesmesonervousohreallyhewasohsodontlie.right.hedid.
hedid.
hewasstaringalongtime.imsoaring.imflying.cant
stopsmiling.myface'scracking.
stopmefromsmiling.
youaretheappleofmyeye.thissongitrefusestoshutitselfout.what?iknewit.iknewhe
wasnt.iknew
hecouldnt.yesimnice.ofcourseimnice.thatsalliam(: icantbeanythingelsebutnice.itsok.itsalright.dontworry.
youaretheappleofmyeye.yesyouare.
youalwayswillbe.
imsorry.imreallysorry.ishouldhaveknownbetter.
ishouldnthavepushedthings.pleaseletspretend
youdontknow.
gonesoyoung.shutthemusic.stopitfromplaying.
did that just make sense to you? it doesnt to me. the thoughts are coming
so fast. i was a
happy red balloon ((: i was a helium filled balloon. helium because its
happy air! and then slowly the
words left unsaid pricked me. and slowly i deflated. my happy balloon deflated.
all i need is
band aids. lots of it. cover the pricks. and i'll be fine again ((:
riah's
always fine in the end. remember?
and she's
such a
slut. she's adopting her
drama queen role now. wondering which best way to approach it so she'd feel better. find reasons to justify her running away.
oh shut up shut up. lets not talk about it. lets run away. she'll be back ((:
the words left unsaid.
riahh ranted at
10:04:00 PM
