Tuesday, August 22, 2006
the first time i had the bad case of the nerves was when i was about to take my a level oral exams.

and i hated that feeling. that butterflies in your tummy? only they're not nudging but running around blindly and crashing into each other and stuffs? ouch. i hate it. cause its not nice. it makes me sweat and do things that i dont normally do. i'd get nervous and worry incessantly about the most trivial details.

but then it ended. and i thought that was the last of it.

i closed my door and said goodbye.

BUT IVE BEEN FEELING LIKE THAT EVERY TIME I SEE YOU AROUND.

you fucker. how do you do it? how do you make me fall in like with you harder each time i see you? this is ridiculous. YOU? make ME nervous?

lets get the facts right here. i make people nervous. i make them cringe and look away when i stare at them.

but you dont even look at me. I dont even look at YOU. how could i? i avert my eyes each time you're around. i dont have to look at you to know you're there. i can feel you. your presence makes me smile. just a glance to know you're in school makes my day. it makes me want to skip and throw dollar bills down the corridor.

i want to share my happiness with the people around me.

you dont have to be mine. im happy watching you from afar.

i'd beat the living hell out of people who bullies you. I WILL.

but underneath this tough exterior. underneath all this bravado. underneath it all. i know i want you.

i like you. sofuckingmuch.

but then again. one cant always have the best things in life ((:

and today. i hung around waiting for you and i nearly crapped in my pants cause im nervous. so nervous. anticipation. i feel retarded. i cant seem to string words together much less hold a conversation without feeling like a first class moron.

how do you do it, angel?

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OK PROMOS TIME. BYE.

riahh ranted at 11:42:00 PM