Friday, August 11, 2006
there's a funny ticking sound which i cant seem to locate. is that my biological clock ticking away? a little too early for that isnt it? or is that just time? reminding me incessantly that time is slipping away. and its going away so fast it'd never come back.

not that i'd really care. SO GO AND DONT COME BACK.

time in the past only serve to remind me of the things that i can never get back. and time to come is so painstakingly slow by the time im there. my interest's gone. i hope thats the case. free me. FREE ME. from charlotte's ahem web. hahaha :D i mean just free me. from this whole mess that im embroiled in. this mess which i have once again created for myself.

im such a loser sometimes. snorts.

mum has finally decided to get a maid. HOW COOL IS THAT. hahaha. that didnt need much persuasion or coercion on my part ((:

i woke up to an empty silent house this morning. everyone's out working or playing or studying and i felt so wasted. i did finish my work in the end. save for p-fucking-w. and my bloody eom. why? WHY? its making me so angsty and emo. damn.

i went for a run today. oddly gratified. i mean. running always has that effect on me. i came home and pigged out. haha. i did. i couldnt stop eating for the life of me. and then i completed my gp paper. some shiznit dimwit article on the quest for beauty. passage b was so heart-wrenchingly feel good. sth you'd feel good about for all of two seconds after reading. and then you go back to school and be surrounded by tall emaciated people and you feel like you're the scrummiest pig on earth.

i beg to differ tho. pigs are cute. heh.

anyway. thats not the point. my point is that people are never really satisfied. they work for things that they can never achieve. but that gives purpose to life does it not? to wake up each day and tell yourself that you need to lose a kg that day or to maintain that damn weight you've worked so hard to achieve?

we all want to look 20 when we were 13 and 25 when we're 45. wth is this? why cant people just accept their damn lines and crow's feet and smile and laugh like how they were when they were a baby? who was the damn catalyst who has successfully induced EVERY SINGLE BEING ON EARTH to prioritise their looks?

what is this lahhhh.

i need to do my gpp now. someone give me a reason not to )):

riahh ranted at 12:33:00 AM