Thursday, July 20, 2006
hello world.

im heading for suspension. for skipping history for a month already. and counting. ms nora if you're reading this im sorry for being such a disappoinment.

with that said.

GOODBYE WORLD.

ahh birks with aiziah tmr! CANT WAIT PLEASE (: and shopping shopping shopping again. my mum will really kill me. after she finds out how much ive been buying. oh PUMA bag next week! ((: yes yes. anyway. mum will kill me. yes. AFTER SHE FINDS OUT IM SUSPENDED. and after she finds out how much ive spent. lols.

lovely lovely world.

zara and ben and jerry's today. awesome much please ((: especially since its all paid for by the lovely lovely cousin. ahhh. shopping at zara is a morale booster. cause S fits and M doesnt (: and i couldnt decide on blue or brown. AND brownie whatsits was simply awesome. ahh i shall try the monster whatsits sundae. HAHAHAHAHA. eighty dollars for a huge fucking tub. thats fucking awesome ((:

who's up? (:

im still worried about my weight gain. how do i explain it? people look at me. and they tell me - hey you've grown! like fatter around the cheeks and stuffs? and i get all paranoid. and yes i have gained weight. 2 kg. thats a lot. and im so so paranoid. my girlfriends tell me i look better. so does richard. BUT YEWHAO THINKS OTHERWISE )):

i already felt so much better when my girlfriends comforted me. but i choose instead to focus so much on yewhao's words )): im skipping meals again. i need to go down again. i need to go back to my 56 kg. my perfect weight. my perfect anorexic/bulimic weight. only then will i feel happy.

crazy. I KNOW.

but i need to have some degree of control over my life. dont worry. im not sick or anything. i just want to have control over my weight so that i'd feel confident.

and like wtf. I HAVE A TUMMY NOW. ive not seen mr tummy for months already ok ): damn.

riahh ranted at 10:42:00 PM