Sunday, May 28, 2006
DAY TWO OF HOLIDAYSwoke up to the incessant ringing of the bell. no actually i already woke up before that. haha. my uncle came to give an invitation card to my dad. he didnt come in. just stood at the door. wringing his hands and looking terribly nervous and tongue tied. he was reluctant to leave. he patted me several times on the head and looked like he wanted to stay and talk to me more. i told him i'd visit him when i have the time. he left. his eyes much brighter than when he arrived.
and then it got me to thinking. there are so many people in this world who
really really loves me. my uncle took care of me for a year. he watched me stumble as i took my first step and heard me gurgle my first real word at eight months. he didnt want my parents to take me back. i was close to him. if i had stayed on. i would have been
spoilt rotten and terribly happy :D he misses me. and that really
touched my heart. and for sure this hols i will
definitely visit him (:
he's my pak long. but only
i alone call him
ayah long (:
watched
discovery travel (: i love shows like these. haha. luxurious holidays and stuff.
orient express was awesome much please! :D shall travel
europe one day. mark my words. i fought long and hard. and eventually.
i lost. I ATE ONE WHOLE PIZZA BURGER OMG OMG OMG. and
one truffino in the morning.
napped and ATE ONE WHOLE BOX OF TRUFFINO when i woke up. omg sin please! ): cleaned up part of my room still. and then came online at around five till now. updated my long-dead friendster account. HAHA. my god. i have no life anymore. and its only the second day of holidays ):
i cant stay home please. please please please ): its terrible. i have no self-control. i eat and eat and eat. and eat some more.
i have no more control over my body and what i eat. i can feel myself growing fat. i feel fat. i AM fat. i need to exercise more. ive stopped sticking to my regime. ive strayed. OH NO. OK. I HAVE ONE WHOLE MONTH TO SET THINGS RIGHT.
i shall...
* eat one slice of wholemeal bread and one cup of milo for breakfast
* one wholemeal sandwich and a fruit for lunch
* lots of water! (:
* and a tiny portion of rice for dinner
* 25 mins of stepper each night
* a jog in the evening :D
lols. no im not insane. this keeps me focused! (: i used to do this. but i stopped. lols. thanks to
judy and iskandar -.-
and i
did do the stepper tonight. the first step is the hardest. time seemed to past like snails MANNNNNN. i told
daffi i missed him! (: school tmr at 2. so weird please.
talked to mum a little about dad and his uhhh..
infidelity. lols. and i come to realise again that among us three i think dad
really loves me more. HAHA. so thick skinned please. he does i know. i mean he pisses me of most times. but when he makes an effort to redeem himself he really goes all out. im more proficient in the language than my bro and sis because i remembered him sitting down with me and teaching me english. from such a young age! wtf. and the result is
me! (:
even
mr chan makes such an effort to redeem himself when im pissed with him. he lets me eat breakfast. do other assignments during irp and is basically allowing me more leeway than the rest. he told me -
hey. so long already. still angry with me? such hushed tones. conspiratorly. as if i was his
mistress or sth.
people really love me. and i take them for granted so ):
mi has some talents.
charyle or however her name's spelt made it to the round before the piano round or whatever they call it? wtf? anyway. they told her that she looked like a
pole dancer and
chanel looked like the pole. HAHAHA. eh please ahh. im not being mean. they really said that on tv (: and
ken lim just had to say that no night club would want to hire them :D
charyle or however her name's spelt should stick to dancing and not sing (: she was errr.
whiny. yeahh.
VOTE FOR NURUL AKHMAR FOR ANUGERAH SKRIN (:
i told waffle. and razi im NOT a minah! hahaha.
hahaha.
...
haha.
...
):
28 days left and counting.
riahh ranted at
10:07:00 PM
