Tuesday, March 21, 2006
the closer you get to someone. the more you see his flaws. would being closer to that someone mean learning to accept them even if its beyond your own principles? i have been thoroughly upset with my econs teacher since yesterday when he addressed me with utter rudeness and insensitivity. not that he realised it. he was talking abt the emails he sent to the whole class regarding the holiday assignment and some of us didnt get it and i was really upset about that. i told him and he shot back - well TOO BAD. like what kind of attitude is that?

and the moment you start to notice one flaw. you notice the other flaws as well. yes mr tang is an impatient man once you really settle down and notice the way he teaches. impatient and a tad rude. this world is full of blatant disrespect. disrespect for the people around you. and disrespect for yourself.

people i once thought i knew are changing. emerging complacency. that lackadaisical attitude getting from bad to worse. people i made effort to forge an aquaintance with turned around and stabbed me right in the back.

im not complaining. its expected. there's a barrier now. its really fully erected and its not gona come down for a long long time. what class unity? rubbish and nonsense.

im tired of having to put in so much effort into my assignments. its so trying on the mind but the reward is so satisfactory. yes as usual. ive gotten basically near perfect marks for econs mcq again (: like only one careless mistake so far. i hope i get equally good results for all my holiday assignments.

my history teacher has been a big pain in the ass. no its not because of the whole you-didnt-do-my-thesis-you're-going-for-detention thing. im not going for no detention. HELL NO. i need a good clean record (: its because of the way my teacher smirks and tell us sweetly that we're so gona get it if we dont hand in on time. like. when am i gona get all my essays back? yeah thanks.

thanks for forgetting we're one big group for lit. yupps. thanks loads.

its been a hellish two days back at school. i teared when i saw the A level project work booklet. scary. like so definite. its like. knock knock. hello. reality check! boo. im so scared i'll be stuck with people who wont do their work. like really scared. i just need some readjusment back in my life.

i hope i get to go back at 1.30 every tuesday. i would really appreciate that loads :D

my life is so mundane now. i feel dull. i need some excitement back in my life. i think im going thru a new phase in my life now. its not growing but its definitely forming. its just waiting for me to give it the green light before it comes to light. is this the result of a very unpleasant circumstance? or am i just finding excuses to make up for it?

nigel doing graphs in econs is the highlight of my day :D yayy!

had pizza hut with judy after school yesterday (: super yum. talked loads. my weight was 56 yesterday. hurrah! :D i feel like such a hypocrite talking to her. everyone's a hypocrite. how can you say you're perfect if everyone talks abt everyone else? tskk. life's complicated.

ok. i really need to get back to my thesis now. all the best to me (: oh and you may just wana say hi to my new phone (: ok its not exactly new. hahaha. but im using this one while waiting for my other new one. and im not planning to get rid of this one cause its so good and i love it and i cant stop myself from touching it :D i love my current 6600 :D

and i love my cat.

riahh ranted at 4:19:00 PM