Friday, March 31, 2006
i really contemplated about not going for sectionals cause i was getting those weird once-in-a-blue-moon contractions that really hurts. no its not my monthlies. its just something that i do get rarely and i dont knw what the hell it is. it leaves me stuck in a position cause the minute i move a muscle it'll start to hurt A LOT.

but i did go down anyway for sectionals. only it wasnt sectionals. it was full band. well not really full cause we have no perc and horns and oboe and saxes but it was good enough seeing that today was a voluntary practice.

it was just.. WOW. amazing. taking on a near-full band and being the greenhorn that i was. i started perspiring even in the aircon room and my hands were shaking. LOLS. we did do enka today and such. and the band hasnt really gone thru it before. and i did some work. from A to E. HAHA. on the conductor's score it looks a lot. but on their own parts. its not even a page. hehs.

AMAZING much please :D

nervous. and all the stupid shits started coming out. saw the C for common time and i thought it was cut time. WTF SO EMBARRASING PLEASE. did serious work with the clarinets :D must learn to accept their sounds. lols. when they change notes and its apparently difficult cause of the different range or sth and they sound like they added in extra notes. amazed amazed. work on their running notes.

flutes like nothing to play lehh. i wonder if conductors feel guilty when they see some sections seating down and idling away cause they have nothing to do. i did. gulps. eupho super soft. and waiyoke's tone is still inside the box :D

seating up there and conducting beats sitting behind the band. the sound you here from up there is amazingly decent. no im serious. ok maybe a tiny bit below decent. but they're not like BAD or anything. the sound comes together quite nicely (: cant wait to see how its like with trumpets the problematic section. and the saxes and the perc (:

and using a condensed score SUCKS to the core man. some parts they dont even write lahh. or maybe they did but i cant find it! ): spent ages trying to see where their parts are. and some break off halfway and continues somewhere else. WTF?!

saw lim dak tok! haha. she remarked on how slim i've become. well. LOLS. im happy (: and she's worried that with all my tuition and music teaching on top of school i wont have time to eat. awww. ok lahh. she's pretty nice now that the situation isnt so bad anymore. yups. she mentioned that all the kids in 4E have grown thinner for some weird reason :DD

came home and napped. i think im such an emo freak lahh. wtf. i watched a few shows today that really had happy endings and i lay sprawled on the floor bawling like anything teared a little through my smile. OMG HOW CLICHED IS THAT? ok so anyway. i hate happy endings cause they're sappy but on the other hand you cant help feeling happy for them too (:

watched joshua's millions. the dvd i borrowed from ages ago. mann. its about a kid who really likes saints and then a bag of money drops on him one day and he and his brother doesnt knw what to do with it. so they spend it. and the kid really wants to give all his money to the poor and to the good causes while the brother's a real jackass. so it was really sad. and then the dead mum appears and talks to the kid and advises him. and then you realise that money doesnt make people happy. it just creates more problem.

and then i watched beauty and the geek. i think it was a re-run. but it was so nice to see the bimbos crying and admitting that they were wrong to have misjudged these geeks who are actually really nice people and all. and that it was unfair for them to be treated like outcasts and how blinded they were by their looks and all. awwww. if only we had more poeple like that in this world :D if people stopped judging people by their looks. all it takes is 15 minutes to get a conversation started. given that you put aside all differences and such.

and then i watched extreme makeover : home edition. well. the happiness that the family felt totally left me bawling and all. HAHA. ok lahh. never bawl lahh. just teared a little :D they were happy. i was happy too! (: the emotions that they must have felt and such. and when LeeAnn Rimes sang amazing grace and everyone cried and all. lols.

i hate crying. i think its a sign of weakness. mann. i hate crying AND talking on the phone. blahh. i think its a waste of time :D

its just a week left to your concert and you guys are having so much conflicts ): it saddens me because the picture that i have painted of you is tainted. this picture that has held my belief of you guys have been around for a long time. and i didnt realise you had such people in your band. i cant be siding everyone. that would be unfair and hypocritical. i'd just be temporarily blind and deaf if i had to come across you guys in one sitting.

maybe you are not what i really think you are. maybe she is someone who just wants attention. i dont knw. and people quitting band and having to shoulder extra responsibilities. i dont knw. i dont knw if the same thing happened to bm band before jubilance. but what i do know is that the satisfaction of having a great concert really brought people together. i sincerely hope that by the end of the concert you'd all have made peace and are happy together.

blogs are dangerous. the trouble it creates. mannn.

my dad just called me stupid. like wtf. just because you are having a BAD DAY doesnt mean you can just spout nonsense. blahh.

did i mention that when people are angry they write so much better? sarcasm just flows so smoothly and the use of it is extraordinarily exquisite as it lays quietly beneath a string of words so carefully formed to give its intended reader the full impact of it. words.. ahhh.

pink : how can you bite the inside of your mouth while eating ice cream? you are a genius.

NYAHAHA. ok bye.

riahh ranted at 11:45:00 PM