Tuesday, February 21, 2006
RIAH IS AN ANGRY GIRL TODAY. no like im really angry. REALLY ANGRY. such a pissifying day. totally. choices should be up to the individual. why do you have to choose for us? assholes i tell you. why cant i go for both pre u sem and cip overseas trip?! i want to go for both. why cant we come to a compromise? i wana go for cip overseas trip. granted we're not going to pakistan. but we're going to..

SRI LANKA.

i wana go sri lanka pleaseee. once in a lifetime opportunity. NO there's a fucking interview to get over with. NO there are bloody requirements to follow. good results good results good results. WTFFFFFFFF. doesnt anyone take into account the amount of effort i put in this year?

EVERYONE IS A LOSER TODAY. EVERY SINGLE ONE. SICK OF IT ALL. SICK OF BEING DUPED INTO BELIEVING SHITS.

raised me up and then you crush me like a fucking insect. YOU SUCK DUDE. like really suck. everyone wants to lie. why? why lie? why cant you just say the fucking truth and get things over and done with? why leave people hanging like a couple of retards. waiting. anticipating. for things that are not likely to happen?

and then mrs meya held a little counselling session for the class cause of what happened in class yesterday. im sure she really meant well. she wanted us to settle our issues on the floor and out in the open. i didnt think it helped much tho. on my part anyway.

im falling more and more in love with othello. such an interesting read. better than that lame crap measure for measure. i want to marry iago. such an interesting man he. full of malice and such. hates women and sees them as nothing but sex objects.

IM STILL REELING IN ANGER. LIKE REALLY.

i cant believe i was that stupid. you're not even remotely good looking lahh. ASSHOLE. and YOU. yes YOU. thats a GIRL'S RANGE. it was made specially for GIRLS. i didnt realise you grew boobs overnight.

choices choices choices. why do i make the same mistakes over and over again? i should just shut up and die. FUCKERS LAHH YOU PEOPLE. LIKE REALLY.

late lunch after school with aiziah judy and julie made my day tho. spent good time chatting with julie abt this and that and such. and aiziah commenting on my legs and her sweet msg afters - hey gorgeous legs. take care and have a safe journey home! damn she's so sweeeet :D i think everyone's happy today.

i wanted to just tear up the fucking test paper and walk out of the room. i was so angry i just wanted to sleep. i wanted to cry. ANGRY. i couldnt focus. mind was reeling. LIKE REALLY ANGRY. refused to focus. stoned. slept. woke up and did good work. FUCK IT. i really wanted to tear up the paper and go off. really tear up the paper and walk away. walk away. and walk away.

and i still did the paper in the end. IM SUCH A LOSER PLEASE.

IM STILL ANGRY BTW. DONT THINK IM NOT. SICKENING I TELL YOU. LIKE REALLY.

riahh ranted at 11:03:00 PM