Monday, January 30, 2006
and so i daringly took a step forward and ventured out to town on my own after andy baobei finally msged me at 3 plus and told me he couldnt make it for our towning session. and from that few hours on my own. i actually learn more about myself. and the general characteristics of human nature (:

i have absolutely no qualms about hanging out on my own. THAT WAS MY INITIAL THOUGHT. unless you look like tyra banks or li liyi or wency or somebody. hahaha. because of my weight loss my clothes are currently un-wearable. blahh. took ages to get ready. donned a skirt and my toes on the noes top and off i gooooo (:

and then i swing about with gaiety at the prospect of an extremely lonely shopping trip ): and people start looking and i start to have mental tourette's syndrome. i came out positive cause my hair's all nice and stuffs. but then i start having second thoughts abt my attire. and the only time i assure myself is when i pass by a window and give myself a quick look over.

maybe there are people i know who's able to walk out the door feeling good abt what they wear and instilling that same confidence in their gait and to the people around them. haha. i cant :D maybe ive not reached that stage yet.

i got on the bus and tried to be insconpicous. i listened to my mp3 all the way till i reached ps. when people laugh i start having panic attacks. LOLS. yes the insecurity within me (: so i walked around carrefour. one of the shops that was still open during the festive season. YAY. much things to shop and buy tho. really. hahaha.

and then this three malay guys walked up behind me on the escalator. and not-so-accidentally brushed past me -.- BOO. totally NOT turned on please. hahaha. yes yes the little thingiee majjigies that perks me up.

i wanted to get some bottoms. i have nothing left to wear except the one that i was wearing then and my school skirt. hahaha. yes hey my school skirt aint so bad (: ANYWAYY. nothing was open except for gio. baleno. hang ten. and the likes. which suited me just fine cause they were having much sales (:

and yes so here's another observation. ive walked in an out of the same hang ten and baleno and gio outlets trying on the same pair of jeans and i still couldnt make up my mind. how many of us can really go shopping without having to decide so much? hahaha. well the people with money's able to do that.

i have financial problems. hahaha. how many of you guys actually know that? :D

if i had money like my friends. id grab every pair of jeans i tried on and probably regret it later. and jeans dont look all alike. they have different cuts. different designs on the back pockets. lols. i really liked the baleno one. but its gonna expand when i wash it lahhhh. the hang ten one was nice but it'll shrink -.-

many of us need second opinions before we do stuffs. most of us are afraid to venture and try out new things on our own. true isnt it? why then do we shop with friends? other than the company. and friends sometimes give crap advice too. hahaha :D girls shop with mums most of the times. other than the cash. they give us assurance that what we're gona get will look good on us.

consider this : you ask your friend what he/she thinks of the blouse you're holding out. he/she shakes his head. you look at the blouse and tells him/her - im getting it.

its reverse psychology. sort of. haha. queena needed opinions before she permed her hair permanently. yew hao and wency went shopping for cny together. the point im trying to make is that no one's really brave enough to stand out and do things without thinking and learn to live with the regret only later. everyone's so conscious of what society wants and seeks.

why all the hoo haa abt being different if you succumb to society in the end?

so then i bought my jeans. after 2 hours and headed back to carrefour to get some pet stuffs. and chocolates for my darls. and then i came home (:

emmi and bee boo's friendship has taken one step further. haha. they'll chase each other arnd the kitchen. emmi will pounce on bee boo with lines like - heee yaaaahhh! take that you big moron! - running thru his little head. and bee boo will back away super fast and start slapping emmi's face. left right left right left right! and probably thinking - take that. and that. and THAT. you stinking ball.

and then bee boo will slap emmi around the throat and emmi will lie dead on the floor and bee boo will pounce on him and bite his neck. scary much? NOOOO!

emmi shuts his eyes and purrs contentedly. bee boo holds him down and starts biting/nuzzling/chewing his neck. i think he meant to bite a chunk of his neck and twirl him arnd the kitchen but emmi's too skinny. so.. NO GO! :D

ahh wells. thats the continued story of emmi and bee boo (: loves.

riahh ranted at 9:43:00 PM