Monday, January 16, 2006
i would be lying if i said i wasnt upset with hilmi today. i was upset. i was irritated and i didnt knw what to do. so its just a few broken promises. havent we had those all the time in the past? so whats the difference now? maybe its just me. i think im just being sensitive again. after all it is the first three months and every pae batch really take the time to enjoy themselves.

but hilmi is a retainee. i did expect him to be a bit more serious abt school and his work and stop being the social butterfly he was the previous year. i asked him if he wanted to join me in mugging this weekend. he did tell me before that after his timetable's finalised we'd be able to mug together and stuffs.

when i asked him today he replied - i cant. i have like church. and work. and a social life.

yes i'll gladly run that by you again. hilmi's converting into christianity. again i would be lying if i wasnt upset/affected when he made that announcement. but i dont think i will let it bother me. i hate knowing undesirable things abt people because it makes me view them in different ways. i hope its a passing phase as pink has so sweetly put it.

i wish hilmi would get a grip of his life. maybe it'd be better after jae. i dont knw. i wish people would start to get serious when everyone else is serious. oh boo. whats to become of the anamalais lahh?

stupid lil ling and her stupid new purple nokia 6111.

i had a great time hanging out with liyi after school. bitching and talking serious stuffs and all. we ate bk. we got all hot and bothered in TIMES. we both seriously need to get a life. hahaha. reading up on our YEARLY horoscopes some more. what era already lahh? we planned to get that cheapo sneakers outside ps. hehs. short time spent but very enjoyable. especially that little stint in the toilet when someone banged on liyi's cubicle door asking her to come out and stop smoking. i was all ready to shout - oi! she just went in lahh! - when they discovered that it was actually the wrong door. boo.

im embarking on a new journey to have a major makeover. ive un-donned the bloody glasses and people are starting to notice. thats a good sign aye? (:

ive completed all my assignments yet again. despite coming home late after sending auntie ilis off at the airport. i feel so accomplished lahhs. i still need to write the letter to ivan lim and then im done. yay. i hope ivan lim gets to be my mentor.

twin replied my email today. im so super touched. i nearly cried. she's been such a wonderful pillar of strength whenever i really really needed her. i cant stop her from having positive feelings abt the people arnd her. i cant make her think the way i think. she's not mine to control. she has feelings and she is in control of herself. i should stop thinking that just because i hate him she should hate him too.

i mean if he praised me like how he praised her. lols. id be over the moon can?

i feel good abt my gp project. i cant wait for individual projects to be assigned. im so hyped abt school. i want to get into pre-u sem and go on the overseas CIP trip. yay. school's so fun this year.

i need to read up more on econs. lols. i cant afford to fake it anymore :D

thanks to all the lovely unity members who have been updating me on the band. hahaha. so cute lah them (: loves to all. kisses!

and siettie. im glad you enjoyed them cookies (:

riahh ranted at 11:36:00 PM