Wednesday, December 07, 2005
yesterday morning was spent teaching the little kids. finished up beauty and the beast. wahh. my third. so hard to get them to play loud ): and kai hoe and his instrument. i told him to pay me 10 cents each time he puts down his instrument while playing.

danny not as used to me as the others. still giving me a bit of attitude problem. but im patient remember. haha. i was able to laugh it off. my first no need to come for sectionals lahh. they are so super and all. only go there waste time sia. tskk.

but it felt really good. after a gruelling half an hour on one bar. LOL. everyone played in unison. with a bit of balance (: yay! super super. wanted to start on aladdin but i dont knw the tempo. SO FAST. pro man the trombonists. tried a bit on i know him so well - selections from chess. pretty nice. but rhythm a bit hard.

pretty satisfying. left early with hilmi. haha. hilmi is all sticks and bones. not so nice to hug :p but he did gain a bit of weight. LOL. oh wells. cabbed with him to town. talked a lot in the taxi. and him bitching abt the taxi driver and all. TYPICAL HILMI (:

rushed to yew tee to meet mubz and nurool. talked. bitched. lotsa nice squishy hugs to go arnd. siti got scolded that morning ): aww. sorry sweetie. you had to take all the blame. im glad they're pretty upset that i couldnt go down. so hugs to deanna. wirda. szejie. nurool. and mubz. siti katijah came can? haha. like nurool said - so much for guest players not allowed. fucker sia refat.

couldnt have put it down better.

got my ears repierced by jules in less than a minute. super pain initially but you get used to it. talked a bit about school. and next year's class list. roar. getting used to her and farhan already. bit by bit. everything takes time.

played hilmi's flute. cant rmb the fingering. HAHA. got ready and headed out to meet my regularz for dinner and chill out. i took the same bus as wency but she alighted at the next bus stop and i was still in the bus. i stared at her and she stared at me. and then we laughed. wah haha. waited for yew hao. talked abt bbq.

dinner at magic wok. it was pretty good really. we had thai style pineapple fried rice. seafood tom yam. you tiao with fish paste. honey chicken. and sambal sotong. all was super yumm can? EXCEPT THE TOM YAM SOUP. which tasted fishy/sandy/fresh seafood-y/bloody. lol. so many different versions lahh. and then crapped. ordered desserts. sad and funny affair ):

laughed the whole shop down. i dont knw why everyone was so high that night. even queena who kept screaming at me - stop staring at my armpits! haha. and gin tried asking for a refund but the guy ignored her. awww. its ok ginnie! while the rest of us were too embarrassed to look up. haha! :P

regularz live and dine in style (: spent abt 60 plus on food alone. haha. spend money like crazy like that. but hey we're happy. we're not rich or show off-y or whatever. its just us. we grew up like that and LOL. just face it lahh. we've got a high standard of living. anyway the more we spend the more we generate income for singapore. so.. we rawk right? LOL.

took the shuttle bus to marina. me and wency were singing arpeggios and Bb chromatic scales in the bus. and queena and ginnie were adding in a little bit of extra rhythm. hahaha! super funny. and yew hao laughing like mad cow like that. the couple and the driver hate us. lol.

me and ginnie bought honeyed macadamia nuts. super ex can? lol. rich man's food (: they bought hooch and heineken. and im not sure what else. took ages to open the bottles. HAHA. last time got kelvin the luo bo to help us. today. wency tried her best. AND SPILLED HALF THE BOTTLE OF HOOCH. lol. and sprayed everyone in the process. all got high. eating nuts and someone's bday cake and drinking.

played truth or dare. more truth than dare actually. and so we learnt abt each other's innermost secrets. it was a night to remember for all of us. hahaha and wency kept spinning the bottles so that everyone had a turn. SUPER CHEATER! :P

but i think they never expected to hear what i had to say. but sharing with them was just so.. magical. like they wouldnt ostracize you and stuffs. they supported me and talked things out with me. they started telling me things id never imagine. it hurt a lot. a lot a lot a lot. didnt knw what to think. i told them i was afraid. and ginnie said to me - if you're afraid of him. its not love anymore.

and everyone was staring at me. and i didnt knw whether to cry or not. and yew hao was being a wee bit uncomfy and such. and queena was like - eh come! we plan an attack on him. all buy egg and keep it for 30 days then throw at him ahh! and everyone just felt like slapping him. i didnt knw what i felt like doing. just kept quiet and stared into space.

too much information at one time. whatever wency said kept running thru my head. that was the most hurtful of the lot. just felt like my heart was cramping up when i found out. and i told her - guys generally prefer you and queena. thats why they always overlook me.

ahh shucks. whatever it is lahh. maybe the light that ive been praying for all these nights have finally dawned on me. still deciding what to do. but at least i feel much better. i just cant bear the sight of him anymore. i dont want to have anything to do with him anymore.

im not gonna waste tears on you refat jawad ahmed. ur not worth my time of day. i cant believe how much you cheated on me when i was with you. HA. if you didnt like me why didnt you just end it all super fast? instead of dragging it on and on and on. and suddenly all ur quirky behavior then seemed logical.

YOU SUCK.

but all in all. i really enjoyed wency's and yew hao's reaction when i told them. it was.. magical :P wency's horrified whispers like - have you ever *********? and i couldnt hear her lahh. LOL. and everyone was just asking questions after questions. wency was having HBP. yew hao went into a state of shock.

ahh the secret's out. im not afraid anymore (:

riahh ranted at 12:18:00 PM