Monday, December 05, 2005
spent a wonderful saturday at huda's place. met up with some of the sec 4 unity members. super fun. just spent the day chatting and eating lots of super food. met my step cousin. took loads of pics. the girls cant stop squealing abt how cute i really am :P LOL. absolutely flattered lahh.

learnt too much things abt him. abt how he really is in band. felt really good talking things out with them. maybe they could have fabricated stories and all that. but the bottom line is their dislike for him is really overwhelming. and i never knew he was such a tyrant in band.

he believes in conformity. he wants everyone to think like him. talk like him. act like him. and be an equal low-life like him. he doesnt give ppl the freedom to form their own opinions. as a result? he has many faithful dogs hankering after him. i cant believe a 16 year old can be such a follower. if he is ms tan or david glosz or mr leonard tan its fine. he's just a nobody.

gosh.

he doesnt even have an opinion of his own. he cant come up with anything original and call it his own. when he does try and it goes terribly wrong. he shuns away all responsibilites. and who gets the brunt of his misadventure? the band. omg. cant believe it when they told me abt it. i cant believe how changed he has become ):

he doesnt have his own band. no band to his name except for bm. and thats also because i helped him with it. if not he'd still be under the wing of ms tan. he needs a life. he and his faithful fuhua gang.

headed to mubz house afters. SUPER FUNNY. chilled at his place and all. rummaged arnd his kitchen for foodstuffs and brought it all to his room. siti and mubz are super sweet (: did stuffs online while hide-and-seek remains forgotten in the background. they both quarrelled abt feeding me the chicken rice. hahaha :P

then mubz did sth terribly stupid and funny. it was so funny at first. had all of us breathless and gasping for air - im so sorry im so stupid. stupid stupid me. i would to apologize to you for being so stupid. wah hahahaha. but then things got serious and took a turn for the worse. and he revealed more things that we really ought to know.

they havent seen his blog. but when they did they cant believe that he would say such things abt them. mubz was still angry with him abt the james barnes concert. he was terribly rude then. talked a while more. and then had to rush home cause it was near midnight - NO TRAIN! and there was really no train when i reached je.

after much calls and smses and such. i finally headed down to gran's place. super angry with a lot of people and still reeling from the shock of finding out so many things abt him. msged hilmi and all but he didnt reply till 4 (:

oh my gawd riah! im so sorry. its like 4 already. i feel so bad. hey, just forget him k? you have to move on. i really hope you're just saying it. its really hard to hate someone you love - i understand. but the bottom line is. you have to get up and walk again. he broke your heart and there are loads of other guys please. so i just hope you're already sleeping which is good :) dun think abt it. when you do think abt something else. love love -.-

haha. my best pal for always (: he's so terribly affectionate lah (:

i cannot accept what a dimbo ive been in the past. HAHA. so many things i cannot believe and accept lahhs. how he could have blatantly flirted with girls when he was with me. but deep in my heart i dont knw. i feel scared just saying it out here. because i know that if he does happen to know what i think of him he will argue his case. AND THEN make me feel like a dimbo all over again for daring to think such a thing. he has a way with words. and making it seem that all my accusations are bloody groundless and such.

ahh. dont wana think abt it.

riahh ranted at 12:15:00 PM