Sunday, November 20, 2005
this was a msg sent by denise chong a few days ago :

AWWW. i didn see you at awards nite! i miss you a lot too. when are you gonna come down to unity la?! hey my msg exploded le. shall msg u on sunday. byebye.

how terribly adorable! hahaha. really cheered me up that. in response to a small little entry i dedicated to her she sent me a lengthy email to update me abt her life. i think she rawkks la. my little twin sister (:

anywayys. i have just come to realise that there is so much more to life than to go about moping each day. for me that is. when i think that life sucks - ahem. how terribly cliche please! - all i have to do is stop and remember that there are people who care.

i shant go into a whole list anymore. LOL. it'll just bore all you people to death.

today was a mind-opener kind of day. i went to my uncle's house because his son just got circumcised. anyway. none of my mum's side went. all of them were from his aunt's side. super unfriendly. and they have kids who ran all over the house banging into people who were eating. the host wasnt doing a good job and sadly the food sucked. blahhs.

and then i went to giant at pioneer mall. again. there were kids running around with plastic wrapped arnd their arms. and their moms dont give too hoots. wtf is this lahhs? how can these kids be any cute? cute kids are babies and babies are confined to their strollers. what for bring the kids out if they are so fucking ill-disciplined and if as a mother you dont care if they bang into people and appear as nuisance to society?

maybe its just me. maybe im nasty. AS USUAL. but im sorray. i was brought up well and even though im spoilt im much nicer than a whole lot of you put together lahh please. my uncle and aunt took care of me for a while when i was small. i grew up partly in jurong west. i feel a certain attachment to the place there. they loved me and they gave me everything i wanted.

however. my mum felt it was wrong. spoiling me like that would make me a very bad person when i grew up. so. MUM TO THE RESCUE! she hired a maid and i didnt go back there that often. mum gave me everything i wanted too. but she taught me how to share. she taught me how to always ask everyone first before everything else. and that habit followed me till today.

as i was saying. my parents never brought us out when we were small. not because they didnt care. but because they were afraid that we would be just like those fucking irritating kids that you see in supermarkets. and who hasnt experienced parents and their little kids taking ages to alight the bus? or how abt kids screaming and creating a ruckus in the bus?

my parents had sense lahhs. why all these parents dont have? my parents took a cab if die die they had to bring us out. we are NOT rich please. if my parents can make that sacrifice why cant these parents do the same too? its not A LOT.

i may be rebellious at times. i may disregard my religion. thinking that its such a constriction. stopping me from doing things that everyone else was doing. my friends were drinking. clubbing. staying out late. and coming home when and as they please. i wanted to be like that too. btw. thats peer pressure.

but no matter how much i want to succumb to things like that. i can never forget my roots. especially when i have people arnd me who are willing to help. im rooted to my religion and i can never run away from it. whatever i do it all boils down to Islam and how i should behave in accordance.

o5a2-ians have really helped me a lot in realising that Islam can be fun and interesting. Rs3veN surprisingly is always ready to help me check out the halal places that i can eat. i feel bad at times that with me arnd they have very limited places to eat but they are adamant abt making sure that i eat at the right places. to these people. much thanks and love.

to liyi. i hope you understand now why i hate it when you act the way you are arnd alcohol. you saw what happened that day at the bbq. and im sure that NOT drinking for a long period of time would kill.

blahhs. singaporeans and their kids these days.

riahh ranted at 7:33:00 PM