Monday, November 14, 2005
yay. new skin. none of those fancy shiznits. a simple skin that can fit in lots of photos without having to resize them too much. and big enough fonts so that you dont have to squint and have your eyesight dwindle to nothingness.

anywayy. yes. fruitful hari raya i had. loads of cash tumbling in and even so. i have NOT finished my rounds of visiting. HAHA. sorry. my family tree too big lah. like my grandma on my dad's side has 13 brothers and sisters. and of course all 13 of them have their own families. and they in turn have their own families. and so on and so forth. collected $250 from less than 20 houses. not enough la please. hahaha okayys.

this year's celebration was a pretty emo one. like you know much tearing and hugging and feelings of remorse. hilmi msged quite a few times abt his emo day and all. really glad things are going pretty well for him. yupps (:

i think hari raya is one of the most meaningful celebrations in singapore. because the main purpose of it is. of course to ask for forgiveness. and people really feel bowled over by emotions and all. and i think that as you grow older you start to be susceptible to the things around you - you start to be more aware of people and such.

yeah. im glad i get to celebrate hari raya. if not for the money. its the food. and if its not that. its the forgiving and emo-ing.

btw. just in case you people didnt know. hari raya is NOT the new year for muslims. we fast during ramadhan and we celebrate hari raya during syawal. and syawal is only like the ninth month or sth. HAHAHA. so yes. please dont get mixed up (:

i love travelling around singapore during hari raya. cause you get to see different families wearing different colors. and when you see teenagers walking abt wearing the traditional clothes you know that they're out visiting. im actually quite proud to say that even the mats and minahs bother to wear them. i mean who wouldnt? they're colorful and they look nice.

malays take pride in their tradition can? (:

and then came o level math. yes retaking again. atmosphere so different. in secondary school you have all the SMART ASSES surrounding you and you feel damn pressured and stuff. but everyone in the lecture room was winking and smiling and laughing softly and pointing at the papers and mouthing - eh dont knw how to do right?! LOL. that was paper one on monday night.

i got a call from mr lim chee guan or whoever he was who asked me to call michelle from nco. okays the gist of it all - im now an intern at CCAB. yay. congrats. which means i get to organise NCO for both primary and secondary school as well as SYF and SHELL-MOE band fiesta in the gardens. yupps.

and i get to learn how to take sectionals during the primary school NCO. yay. and play for the faculty band. double yay.

no pay. BOOOOOOOOOO.

i cant make it for the last few days of secondary school NCO. attended SLE. wah lao. some ulu dairy farm adventure camp. the facilities were alright lahh. the bunks look like chalets. SERIOUS. and the inside of it is super nice and all lah. only the fans cant rotate. BOO. and we have warm water in the showers. only we have no toilet paper. the food was decent. only the water tasted like chlorine tablets.

overall it was ok only lahh. too many talks. falling asleep already. learnt a few stories. but organising ORIENTATION II - JAE was super fun la please. i think our ideas werent half bad only we didnt present them well. went for high ropes. HAHA. ok wtf. i stood crying on top of the fucking log for like half an hour. cause i was too scared to jump. its like you climb all the way to the top and jump and try to catch the trapeze.

i dont have a fear of heights. i have a fear of falling.

and like all the teachers came and try to coax me down. as well as a few SCs. and EVERYONE stopped their activities to cheer me on and all. wah lao. and aiziah and siettie said i looked like a little kitten up there. so cute right? LOL. no way lahh. scared like hell. cry and cry. and mr ram was being so nice and all.

skit for campfire was a total malufying incident. HAHAHAHA. no one knew when we started or when we ended. and there was grace and kim shaking their butts and all. HAHAHA. total embarrassment.

i think my group rawkks la. pretty cooperative and all. or maybe because it IS a leadership camp after all and we're pretty much above the rest. hahaha. im so touched that everyone was so considerate towards me. everyone tried to help me in some way or other cause i had to study for math. they taught me slowly even tho i asked the same questions over and over again. they tried to keep the noise down so i could study at night. lovely people.

i left on thursday night cause i had paper two the next morning. solo night walk befores. waited 2 hrs plus. no kick lahh. cause was walking with aiziah and all. LOL. pretty scary and all.

paper two was a relief la. sort of? I WISHED I'D STUDIED HARDER. actually no. i could do the paper pretty ok. and i completed a few questions. lovely. the ones i left blank are the ones im hopeless in (: yay. i just want a six lahh.

rushed to ccab afters. did a bit of work. LOL. took the drum majors for a bit. had a meeting with of the heads. got intro-ed to the AD. and then i was released. watch the POP. pretty nice. bad seats. blahh. so proud to see szejie aka hamster and rest of the cousin band members. NO ONE came to support szejie can? ok. wtf? so bad lahh. talked to her a bit and then went arnd saying hi to all other majors i know.

met up with ms chong and my majors. went to marquee and ATE BY MYSELF. so sad la please. but then btw food and pride. i'd rather go for food.

and then it got me thinking. suddenly in one shot i have all the good things in life. i got into SLE. i won the servant leadership award. i became and intern at CCAB. and the sad thing is that - i have no one to share it with. no lahh. none of those bf shitznits. i was thinking of the regularz. or the Rs3veN as we're now called. love them to bits lahh.

spent yesterday going to Beautiful Sunday at the esplanade. west winds was performing. ok west winds big fuck is it? i think that yes they have tone and technical wise not that bad lahh. but even abba gold sound so dead. no emotions and such. so many draggy songs. SLEEPY LAHH. first time we chao-ed before encore.

the regularz helped me feel better abt myself. hahaha. talk and talk. gossip and gossip. he looked so FAT lah please. while i still look ravishing and cute. hahahahaha. they're totally against my idea abt getting back with THE man. oh wells. now is NOT emo mood (: im totally going with them for the idea.

love love.

riahh ranted at 1:50:00 PM