Wednesday, August 24, 2005
yes today i was visibly upset. since when was i not? *rolls eyes. im a contradictory person. while i look down on people for some undesirable traits they possess i fail to realize that im guilty of some too. i think i just snapped today. maybe i should have talked to her. find out whats wrong before i form my own conclusions.

i dont understand why i get pissed when she doesnt do her hw. i dont do them too. i think im worried for her. because she's fucking behind all her work. and no matter how much encouragement i offer - do i offer any? - or how much i try to help her. she doesnt seem to be helping herself.

but then again. i never asked or talked to her about it. so i could be wrong. which im most probably am.

if she's tired. if she's lagging behind in hw she should go home and get them done. or drop all her work and get some rest. its irritating to see her moping arnd school and sleeping during classes. if ur really tired. stay home and get all the rest you can get. walking off to avoid bad conversations is idiocy. arent we all friends? buddy buddy pally pally all. sometimes a silence is companionable and words are unncessary.

its ok to shut up once in a while. not just you. all of us.

you need to get ur life back on track liyi. you need to get the momentum gg once more. if you need help just fucking ask us. we're gona do all we can to help you. we all want to be promoted but we dont get to year 2 just by sitting arnd laying eggs.

we gotta work for it.

but then again. i never talked to you abt this before. but now im telling you this. because im such a chao qi coward. i dont dare to tell you this face to face. but i dont want to come to sch everyday and see you moping and pretend that everything's ok.

because its not.

im sorry if i hurt you. i love you all the same. really i do. i just want you to shape up your life back to what it was. thats all.

riahh ranted at 12:28:00 PM