Tuesday, August 30, 2005
i finished my gp essay. i saved my lunch money. we didnt perspire during pe. cause we had NO pe. no dirty dancing. sadded. science people sucks. they cant keep their mouth shut and gosh they're just really infantile please.

a group of science girls were hurling a coconut against a wall by the lecture theatres. gosh. grow up please?

pretty emo in the day. came home. ate a good lunch. watched disney. napped. woke up and then i just felt listless. i used to feel this way and he used to say that i wasnt used to the time. that my body reacts differently if i did sth out of routine.

refat is the asst conductor of unity now. i would have expected myself to feel indignant that such a baboon of a man be allowed to teach. but i just feel.. normal. i think im sick of quarrelling with him already.

gosh. how i miss my honey. somehow my younger twin seems to know whats really going on deep down. no matter how angry i am at him for leaving me. no matter how much i try to bring him down sometimes i become wistful and then i'll start missing him. he was so much a part of me. he was my everything. all i think of is him.

even in the most subtle ways. when i think of ways to plot against him - all in my mind of course - i am inevitably thinking of him. i want to be with him again. i want to fall into his arms and feel his bulging tummy and his warm breath and his reassuring hands rubbing my back. i want to envelope myself in his familiar scent and hear him say that he'll never leave me no matter what happens.

gosh. im emo. onset of pms la.

riahh ranted at 9:53:00 PM