Thursday, July 28, 2005
things turned for the worse today. im sure she knws. my temper tantrums are really such a pain in the ass. but then again. i am not one to mask my feelings. if im pissed i make sure u knw it. and when im happy everyone shares my joy.

im sure liling knws my deepest loathing towards her. there's just sth abt her which i cant really put my finger on. small yet irksome. i think she's more spoilt than me. she hasnt tried any of her funny antics with me. if she even thinks abt it. tskk.

ROAR!

and today i was upset with jules babe yet again. she knws. its so obvious. the walking away and not turning back to look at her when she called out my name. the unreturned kisses. avoiding her eyes. i tried to be nice. i tried. its not like i didnt. but each time the guy move into my peripheral version. everything turns topsy turvy.

when will this resolve? when will i start thinking abt what she feels and not what i feel?

my love for econs has been rekindled yet again by no one else but dear old mr chee (: he is THE man. and i cant wait for the next econs lesson when i start showing off my facts and my completed assignments. if he had taken us for national income accounting. i wouldnt have probs remembering them.

my linking and stringing of ideas still leaves much to be desired. room for improvement. there is im sure (:

i want to throw my whole being into my work. turn my negative feelings into sth constructive.

much laughter from hilmi today. his adorable gay cry of 'anamalai rawks!' sent me and liyi into peals of laughter. and he looked so cute and happy. LOL. and he laughed non stop when i demonstrated how i would love to murder liling if she dared do to me what she did to judy.

stupid little girl with her stupid little wong.

so im nastiee. people tell me to at least be polite to her. but i resent her so. why should i put up a fake front in front of her? id think that im at least better than those who speak ill of her behind her back but try to be polite in front of her.

i think nigel is a little weird. lol. its disconcerting to see him stoning like anything during econs. after i color coded his notes and drew his graph and everything. tskk. he's stoning for every subject tho. hahaha.

towning alone is actually a hell lot of fun (: hilmi was sick and nige decided not to come along so i went shopping and stuff alone. great day out. walking down orchard road and observing people. heee. i predict many more days ahead. just like today.

i cant wait for parents meeting tmr. HAHAHAHA. so excited to show my mum my dilapidated-near-extinction school. and how it is hidden by forests.

ms nora scared us a little with talks of bombs and world war 3 and stuff but like she said. mi is not prominent enough. the bomb is bound to MISS. wah hahahahaha.

im excited because my teachers will complain to her how much i talk in class. and mum will add in sugar spice and everything NOT nice. while i stand by and tskk tskk and tut tut. all the while pretending to look embarrassed. i am rather proud of my achievements. chatterbox. tts me (:

and mum's gona pack sandwiches and put them in a basket covered with a red and white checked cloth. albeit little red riding hood. and give them to my teachers. and i imagine her jumping for joy and hitting the roof when she finds out i flunked. and sandwiches will rain down from the heavens (:

KIDDING! sandwiches is a bit of a farce. but imagine her to hit the roof tho. hahahaha.

much love! muah (:

riahh ranted at 8:01:00 PM