Saturday, July 23, 2005
i headed down to bm after school friday for a bit to give andy ONE MEASLY SCORE. jules babe followed me. and then we went back to clementi. on the way i happened to listen in to her convo with farhan. omg. wth la please. so sickk. but i didnt say anything. even tho i very much want to.

im sick of seeing my babe walking around school looking depressed and troubled.

i dont knw why there's a need for my approval. these guys like her but they just happen to be guys who i dont favor. lol. she's my babe and she can go with anyone she wants to. i dont want to be the one to decide for her who she gets to be with. thats none of my business. if she happens to get on with farhan let her be. i just still wont like him tts all.

im sorry babe if i do give u a hard time sometimes. love you loads.

met with fel. kai feng. zoey. candy and mei at cck. me and zoey met up with siok han in school den we went up to band. okayys. lets just say they didnt sound too good yesterday. while playing alvamar the trombones were barely heard. and they sounded muffled. they need to learn to tongue.

forget tonguing using only the diaphragm. they need to grasp the art of tonguing using their. well. their tongues. lol. faints.

and then the thai people came so we left. siok han went home and me and zoey stayed in her class. almost here is now officially sang by riah featuring zoey (: hahaha. wah lao delta goodram only sings like a few little lines sia.

went back to band just in time to catch the finishing bars of alvamar. bones were soft and all they played were notes when they had melody. i have no qualms saying that because i know that i dont play songs like that. i guess all it takes is time. these kids have time.

they need to learn to tongue. im no pro myself. but for once. just watching the band and not playing really opened my ears. and my eyes. on what i have been missing these past few practices with them. i understand now why ms tan or refat get so upset all the time. they are not bad individually. some are pretty decent. but as one. they have no coordination.

yes their dedication is astounding. im not saying their heart's not in the right place. but these kids are lost. they need direction.

and how are they gona get direction when refat doesnt really teach? he just stands there and conduct and scolds them. at most he will just point out the dynamics. and he needs to keep his attitude in check. if being angry and scolding them doesnt seem to make such an impact. try a different tactic. why stick to sth that doesnt work?

ur a different man when ms tan is around. is there a need to impress her that much?

had dinner with the guys. mitchell saw us and he started bursting into hysterics. and he went around telling all the guys sth fishy. but he apparently couldnt get his message across because he was laughing too hard. jie kai astounded by asking me ' do u hate him?'

tsunami told me his woes and his obvious dislike towards raj. ahh dearie me. and then jie kai told me his dislike towards tsunami because he finds that the latter is a show off. ahhhh. and rahman came up to me and told me that he's gone to see the doctor (:

congrats! he doesnt have cancer after all.

came back to band and i played niceeeee songs. fate of the gods and declaration ballade and finale. i am in love (: in love with band all over again. lol. mitchell's yamaha is really not nice to play. there's sth stuck in there. i suspect its a dead bird. LOL.

and then ms tan came. and started telling us sad stories to make the trumpeters get in the mood. but raj kept on laughing and laughing. i wanted to cry siaa. when she told us of the cat that was trying to catch flies for its dinner. raj is one funny dude.

band wrapped up nice nice. my tone sucks la. the beginner trombone is damn pro. hahaha. siti and tsunami walked me to the bus stop. they said i made a lot of difference. my volume doesnt count for much and lets not get into the matter of tone.

gladys and the lighting was funnnnny. OMG. laugh until want to die. she was supposed to plunge us into total darkness when we came in with the wrong note. but she came in one beat too early. hahahahahaha. the effect was comical. i was near hysterics. and then when ms tan cut. only left refat playing the timpani all by himself. OMG. so funnny la please. so loud den so the semangat siaa.

ahh saw lilian and eugene in the bus (:

and today there was much talk with the much missed DENISE CHONG. lol. some random stuffs abt low cut jeans and hairy ass (: now then. havent the bm people experienced that too (: awwww.

riahh ranted at 3:05:00 PM