Wednesday, July 20, 2005
i usually have the habit of reading my previous entry before i write a new one. lol. what can i say? I JUST LOVE THE WAY I WRITE LA PLEASE. lol. shameless. downright shameless. but who can deny the fact that im pretty good? (: when i wrote the previous entry i thought it was crap. but then i read it again today. and i was nodding to myself and grinning like a complete fool.

i love myself (:

today i hung out with kimmy and aiziah after that crap heritage thing which i unknowingly volunteered for. yes it was pretty much crap la. just sit there listen to c. kunalan talk abt his days as a runner. tho i really couldnt see the connection btw that and this whole heritage hoo haa.

went to mango. tried on dresses. while i fretted abt my nearly-there boobs and my thighs (: judy left with her bf and then we walked arnd. went to daniel yam. AHHHHHHH. i want that nice maroon/purple/whateverstupidcolor dress. went to find a place to drink. bought express mocha from this little san fransisco cafe.

blended ice. a scoop of chocolate ice cream and cocoa. mounds of whip cream. heavennnn (:

sky garden was a perfect place to sit and chill with my classmates. okayys. its just this immediate trust thing when we're with new people. oh no wait. i think its just me. when i poured out everything to liyi she asked me 'do u trust me that much?'

i stared at her thoughtfully and answered 'yeah i do. i just trust people really easily. its not always a good thing tho. so yeahh.' and then i smile smile (:

and liyi told me that that was such a contrast to my personality. her remark resonated in my mind for days afterward. i dont really knw why it left such an impression.

how do people perceive me?

anyways. aiziah confided a little abt her problems. and we just talked and talked. abt school. and our classmates. and a little abt our life (: yes they are all ever so envious of my mum. lol. i love my mum too (: it was easy clicking with them. they're not my usual rowdy gang but i fell back into my usual chatty self as per usual. TSKK.

today was a pretty meaningful afternoon with them. i feel no qualms or embarrassment abt letting them knw abt my life. my daily allowance is no big hoo haa. yes i love food more than anything else (: but they seem to think otherwise.

i exude self confidence. i look in the mirror and while i do fret abt my zits i do smile and think to myself that im one pretty lady (: i feel good knowing that im tall. i have legs that are TO DIE FOR. and heyy im pretty shapely altho i do belong in the nearly-there department (: my friends have straight teeth but i find that my imperfect teeth shows character and personality. ive never wanted to change my teeth (:

narcissist. please puke if u feel the need to. it doesnt really affect me (:

my hobby is eating. my passion is writing. my love is music (:

was late for school today. overslept. and when i woke up i knew i was dead. i still strolled along and stuff. reached sch at eight (: managed my finances and like wah lao. im left with $5.45 today. how broke can i get? sobs.

farhan and gang are really getting on my nerves. but oh wells. what else do i do but learn to ignore them? tskk. 'eh eh where's snow white [or whatever?]' if farhan wants to knw cant he ask it himself? where's the sincerity la please?

read seventeen today. pretty interesting article on how to deal with break ups. LOL. yes im very much cheered up. yayness! lol. and unbelievably we had a drama during ht today. some drama group came down and did a play on bgr. how appropriate. pretty interesting. like so cliche but teenagers can DEFINITELY relate to it. heee.

the play was much punctuated by snide remarks abt mass orgy and group sex. tskk.

ahh. today was a good day (:

can u not be my friend anymore? love you! hahaha (:

riahh ranted at 8:24:00 PM