Sunday, July 24, 2005
i was up early and i went to jb to shoppppp to my heart's content. of course my constant complains followed me everywhere i go. i honestly cannot believe how two countries separated by a mere stretch of road can differ so much. its like standing in the middle of a doorway. one step in front is ULTRA modernised singapore. take one step back and its.. lets not get into it.

shopped for foood foood foood. my mum has this big box which was originally from the oven toaster my dad bought me. she keeps it under a chair in the kitchen. one day. she brought us three into the kitchen and opened it up. and inside was SNACKS of every kind imaginable. well of course being the little devils we are. we devoured most of it. since then. we're always constantly stocking it up (:

the box is now brimming again.

if there's someone id rightly admire itd be my mum. cliched as it may be i think i find her way of disciplining us and teaching us are wonderful. since young. she gave us whatever we wanted and if it isnt within her means she'd tell us. and we dont make a scene and cry our lungs out like how most kids are nowadays. she'd give us the world and subtlely tell us to share it.

she taught us how to ask before taking sth. she taught us how to offer people whatever food we have. she gave us love and taught us to love others. she cared for us like no other. i remembered how i always felt embarrassed to eat the food she packed for me. my friends always had money to buy food from the canteen.

at that time i didnt think that my friends parents were simply too busy or rather didnt bother to prepare food for them.

now im the envy of my friends. i lovingly share my foood with my classmates and friends. and force them to at least take a teeny little bite of whatever yummy yum that my mum prepared. im happy and im carefree because i know that whatever happens. my mum will always be there for me.

i have the habit of doing things and then telling her (: when i find a new guy she finds out. when i break up. she finds out too. its a mum thing. they just know. she admonishes me all the time for coming home late or for not calling her the whole day. we have quarrels. who doesnt? but when i discover sth new. when i try sth different. when i meet someone interesting. the first person i want to tell is my mum.

well when i was attached to him. i wanted him to be the first to know abt me. i didnt treat him like my previous guys. he was someone special. even till now when i feel upset or when i feel happy or when i hear sth funny i wonder if he... and then id stop myself.

im all grown up now (: im like seventeeeeen okayys? i hope for once. ud stick to this one promise of yours. that one day. one fine day. we'd end up together again. and i promise u id be a fine young lady. more matured than i was. and ready to face the world with you.

did i mention i shopped for food? hahaha. im going back there in a fortnight. going to do some serious CLOTHES SHOPPING. yayness! cant wait (:

riahh ranted at 10:32:00 PM