Tuesday, July 26, 2005
ive been talking to joe these past few days and i knw how upset he gets. if i could i would show him my journal where my thoughts. my fears. my anger. my sadness. and my hatred flowed freely. this is so the EMO. but oh nevermind. and if i could id show him my blog and let him read my days of non-stop emotional rollercoaster ride. happy one day. deluding myself. depressed the next. days after days of insecurity and dark thoughts.

BUT IM HAPPPY NOW.

but i cannot help but see the similarities in all this. yes joe has it worse than me. and try as i did i couldnt lift his spirits up. in the end all i told him was to believe that time will heal all wounds. i noticed how he liked to slot in 'U make me so happy' or 'U tried to console me' in his blog entries. for people who didnt knw better that piece of not-so-subtle information can be misleading.

i used to do that. to try to evoke some kind of emotions - anything at all. but he remained unmoved. SADDED. i hope things work out for the best for joe. he really deserves better. he's a great guy. but he's a cancer. and cancerians are generally steadfast in love and are damn emotional. unfortunately. lol.

a few funny things from my ai ai :

[j][O][n][A][t][H][a][N]™ [p][R][i][N][c][E][s][S] =) [cHoCoLaTeZ] says:
THE CLARINETS N FLUTES SO CUTE!!!

[j][O][n][A][t][H][a][N]™ [p][R][i][N][c][E][s][S] =) [cHoCoLaTeZ] says:
LIKE DOG!!! BARking in high pitch!!

[j][O][n][A][t][H][a][N]™ [p][R][i][N][c][E][s][S] =) [cHoCoLaTeZ] says:
woe woe woe woe woe woe!!

[j][O][n][A][t][H][a][N]™ [p][R][i][N][c][E][s][S] =) [cHoCoLaTeZ] says:
u heard the 2 min bar there ald?

[j][O][n][A][t][H][a][N]™ [p][R][i][N][c][E][s][S] =) [cHoCoLaTeZ] says:
really sound like dog!!!!

[j][O][n][A][t][H][a][N]™ [p][R][i][N][c][E][s][S] =) [cHoCoLaTeZ] says:
the he papa dog is the bass BO BOW BOW BOW!!!

[j][O][n][A][t][H][a][N]™ [p][R][i][N][c][E][s][S] =) [cHoCoLaTeZ] says:
then the puppy dog goes WOE WOE WOE WOE!!

yes. we were talking abt danse diabolique. hahahaha.

and sze jie is one funny cow. i CANNOT TAHAN her.

btw. im the biggest meanie pokk in the whole world. really i am.

riahh ranted at 10:00:00 PM