Sunday, July 03, 2005
today i spent a day out with gran and cik bobo again. i used to really dislike gran when i was younger cause she was always so fierce to me and stuff. but as i grew older and mum told me stories abt her. i learnt to become more sensitive around her. my gran is a really strong woman physically and emotionally despite her old age. we cant mention to her anything that we want. cause she will always make the effort to get them for you.

my sis remarked casually that she wanted to eat ice balls. they are very much like ice kachang only that its in the form of a ball. this was a childhood treat during my gran's and mum's times. we headed to bugis where a food festival was going on. the queue was super long. me and mai waited for almost 20 mins for our turn. during the long wait. we heard many old folks reminiscing abt the old days. how it was hand made at the time. how it was so much bigger. how they used to get caned by their mums and all that. and how. people ate it in their hands instead of in a container.

i wanted to snap a picture of the guy tossing the ball in the air several times and catching it back. but i couldnt. tskk. but i did manage to capture one of a lady in the process of 'coloring' the ball. and of the end product itself. will load them up soon (:

the crowd was huge. security guards had probs getting it under control. and lets have a non sequitor moment here. it is downright irritating when people are so adamant abt pushing through the smallest gap when its so obvious their fat ass cant pass thru. its so rude. and when they step on ur delicate toes they dont even say sorry. good grief. what is with singaporeans these days? and lets not go into people who rush for the bus. its not as if ur gona die standing or sth. so what if u dont get a seat? kiasu-ism is getting a real pain in the neck.

having a food festival is great. it draws crowds. and it brings people together. dont mess with us singaporeans. we know our food (:

gran tries to communicate with me. i do too (: but she doesnt understand mandarin unfortunately and i cant string two words in malay together. but we do try. my gran is not like those normal grannies who gather under the block and yak their lives away. my gran is like super hip. she shops in town and all that. not that she's super well off or anything. but she likes to go down to town once in awhile and window shop.

she buys bread from st leaven in taka. she loves the raisin canape loaf and well one tiny loaf is $2.70. not a lot eh? well she doesnt buy just one. she buys a lot. and gives most of them to me and mum (: yes that shop rawks. i will go down and gratify myself when i have the time. the stuff in there are yummy. shall bring regulars down. sure they enjoy. lol. but im sure me and yew hao will enjoy more (: miss him like nuts man.

had a nice lunch at lucky plaza. was so desperate that i asked gran if she wanted to play pool. I NEED POOL. im super deprived. i need pool sooo bad. sighhs. btw i ate oysters raw today. they're pretty yummy. floury taste of some sort. oh wells.

it was a nice day out. mum was super happy. im glad.

i let everything out today. to the two. no three. no. i dont knw how many friends who have listened to my troubles tonight. i thank you all. for giving me advice. for letting me knw that im not alone. and most of all for making me feel like a million dollars. even though my problems are pretty much mundane by now.

to kelvin. thanks for your advice. thanks for omitting my fears and worries. thanks for showing me that trust between friends are important. you are not only my lao shi and my luo bo. you are also my ou xiang (: i love you.

to the unity trombonists : mitchell yunwei zoey and sze jie. WELCOME TO THE TROMBONE SECRET CLUB. lmao. so childish. but u knw i knw she knw they knw HE dont knw can already (: the bond btw trombonists are somewhat immediate and oh yeah. trombone rawks. lol.

i find the use of kk or kkz highly offending. it pratically oozes impatience and indifference.

im sure that this year's national day theme song has reached ur ears and eyes. very nice song. unfortunately. why does taufik have to be in it? what a spoiler really. there are so many more eligible contenders. why him? did u notice him trying to be like usher AGAIN in that video? somewhere towards the end? i needa puke. this is our NATIONAL DAY theme song. good grief.

trust between new friends is sth which is vulnerable yet... hmm. i wasnt surprised today when liyi did what she did. i was like that too. when i first knew my classmates. i immediately trusted them. i dont knw what made me feel that way. maybe its the prospect of someone new. someone who didnt knw ur past. so u have no qualms letting them into ur lives. i didnt hesitate to let them read my blog. but i was so reluctant. hesistant. afraid even. of letting my gang read it. trust. its sth very very important within any relationship.

to moo moo : all is forgiven. i do not wish to indulge in promises anymore. because words mean nothing to me. i do not wish to be hurt again. friends okays (:

riahh ranted at 11:52:00 PM