Wednesday, July 06, 2005
today was pretty relaxed. the only exciting thing which happened today was our new econs teacher YET again. i did mention that mr chee was an exceptionally lame but thorough teacher. he was patient in his explanation and tirelessly answered my endless streams of question. he gave me a flame of hope. but this new chao ah lian ah. dashed my hope.

ms shen. i think she's the worst thing to have ever happened to our class. u teach like you wana fight like that. you stare as if you wana fight also. ur use of singlish awes me to no end. maybe im not giving her chance but too bad. her first impression failed me. she's a tad rude as well. oh wells. i guess i will make ur stay uncomfy. i just dont like you.

early break. went to pjc for rhd training. i really cant wait for the actual event. the parade sounds really good. and the dance coordinator. the uncanny resemblance btw him and mr neo is unbelievable. cannot make it. really pro. gotta spend lots of time next week during exams to complete the float buggy.

dont mention a teacher and expect me to know who he or she is. how am i gona get my free tickets to the statdharmonie band? biangs. so damn angry.

aiziah is super nice. she's so sweet and everything. and she has this really gentle manner around her. at approximately 4.25 pm today she told me that i was photogenic. cause of all the photos of me and stuff. i have been told that i was pretty and cute and all that. but she's the first to say that im photogenic. LOL. yes let me revel in her praise (: but i dont like her just because she praised me. aiziah is a really really nice person.

i am so so sick and tired of him. its been a hellish term these two weeks. he's in practically all my project groups. and it makes me sick sitting near him. our eyes locked briefly for a moment but i broke the spell. let him hate me. i hate him too. mutual. period. yet. me and jules couldnt help feeling sorry for him. its happened again. he just sat there by himself during the tea break. no crowd to fit in to. no one to talk to.

but he became a changed man after rhd training was over. a leopard after all never changes its spots.

i found lesley pearse's book after many days of searching! but its not the latest tho. when i searched for the latest one. only bb's branch was available. but it was getting late. and im super tired. so i gave it a miss. please please. let it be there tmr.

fetish for earrings. exams are coming and im reading. and shopping. and not studying at all. i got a 6 for lit two essay. reason? insufficient evidence. quotes. hmm. a little stirred. after all i did hope to score better for lit. but then again kok never really taught us anything. so no diff.

i talked to joe and i hope he feels better now (: yes im praying for him. i pray that he wont cry tonight over what has happened. he opened up to me and i did the best i could. i was in a better position considering that id rather recently went thru one too. it seems bleak in the beginning but it is possible. look at me now (: happy happy! hahahaha. the things that joe is willing to sacrifice is amazing. ive always knwn he would give his all for a relationship. ever since riverside's sarah. he's someone special. and its her loss for losing him.

yes kenny is being irritating. in a cute way. lol. azman is in ite clementi. together with kenny. strange isnt it? everyone is a hypocrite in their own ways. and i mean that. everyone is a hypocrite. if not to others its to themselves. azman used to loathe kenny but oh wells. they chatted and stuff. and kenny popped the qsn and asked if i still contacted refat. i told him its not so often anymore. but i mentioned i still missed him. lol. but not that much. just a little teeny weeny bit.

kenny : hw? u still got contact refat?
me : refat? hmm. not so often le. why? (: but i still miss him tho. LOL.
kenny : sure nt?
me : (: hahaha. of course i miss him la. hmm. maybe not so much la. LOL. a bit. abt 10 percent miss la.
kenny : den 9o percent miss who?

faints.

talked to zoey abt S. when i read his blog ah i really cannot make it already. self centred. conceited. and arrogant. if u looked remotely like matthew lanter maybe its still ok. but ur the direct opposite. no i dont care abt you. what i care about is how u seemingly possess F. i dont think u love F. u want to control F. ur concern hides an underlying motive. why carve F out to be someone u want F to be? why cant F be herself? u are making a mountain out of a molehill. small matters u wana blow up. when ur not happy u threaten F with a break up.

do you knw who u remind me of? u remind me of someone in my past that i have long forgotten. u remind me of my ex. he was exactly like you. the way you speak. the way you reprimand F. the way you control F with threatens of break up. one day. F will walk out and will never return. u mark my words.

no wonder u and J get along so well together. i cannot believe this. J. an instructor to the band. and he and you put ur head together and actually decide who breaks with who.

sth to cheer up my day :

zoey : there's this donation that we made today and there's taufik's face on it. huier says refat looks like him.

hahaha. oh dearie (:

i havent heard from you today. hope it was a good day (: take care!

riahh ranted at 10:29:00 PM