Wednesday, July 27, 2005
LIKE WTH. LIKE TODAY ISNT ALREADY A BAD ENOUGH DAY.

i love the unity members like my own. and i trust some of them enough to share with them my secrets. WELL THANKS FOR BLURTING IT OUT AND MAKING LIFE DIFFICULT FOR HIM. i told u the reason why i didnt want u to tell the whole world. its because i dont want to create problems for him. for me. and FOR ALL OF YOU.

i am upset because people can be such hypocrites. the fact that i trusted u enough obviously means nth.

to those who posed the question : i can assure u that u knw nothing about it. yes u heard abt it but u dont know the full details. to date ive only told 4 ppl abt it. and the rest can NOT knw abt it because i TRUSTED this 4 ppl. you dont even knw the full gist of it. all u heard are rumors which arent probably even true.

why make my life difficult? i get msges from him once a month complaining that i shot my mouth off yet again. stop it la please. will u only be satisfied after he says what u wana hear? BECAUSE U WILL NEVER HEAR WHAT U WANT TO HEAR.

NTH HAPPENED. and i told u a million times ITS NOT TRUE. but no. some of u choose to spread malice and slander. AND GOD BLESS ME BECAUSE SHERIDAN WILL BE SO PROUD OF ME.

this is not entirely my fault. many of u guys learnt of it before i came to ur band. those who dare to ask him abt it ought to be brave enough to own up and say where u heard it from. so why the hell is HE pushing all the blame to me?

like wth. act ur age can? how old already still act like schoolkid. if u cant understand english. i'll tell it to you in malay tamil chinese WHATEVER U WANT TO MAKE IT GET INTO UR HEAD.

to him : its not my fault. but u make it seem like its always me. why am i still being the way i am whenever im with you? how do you do it? how do u twist ur words so much so that i start feeling inferior and believe that everything really IS my fault? its getting a bit old with the when-sth's-wrong-lets-all-blame-riah.

u dont have the right to order me around and tell me what i should or shouldnt do with all the things i own. THEY ARE MINE. if i wish to blow them up and paste them all over singapore. I CAN. and u cant do a single shit abt it. so stop saying like its my fault. stop thinking that everyone's the same. cause they're not.

if the people u know cant keep their mouth shuts well i knw a hell lot more people who can.

i will not get upset by this. i WILL NOT. it takes something and someone much worse than this to reduce me to tears. i will not be pushed over by someone who cares more abt himself than others. i never knew u to be this selfish and arrogant.

to all those who advised me to stand up to him. as much as i would want to. i wont. cause i love u guys too much. i dont want to get ppl into trouble and i dont want him to take away my privilege of coming down to ur band.

i wont wish that it never happened. i just wish ppl arent so bent on hearing things that make them happy.

riahh ranted at 9:02:00 PM