Tuesday, May 17, 2005
WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE?!

ive got tons of hw piling up and i still have the mood to sit down and blog. of course i have larr. i always do. if my hw was to blog everyday. id be ecstatic. madness. everyday essay essay essay. every night its bullshitting my way out. next thursday is my gp exam. and during lectures and tutorials all i do is snore and look at the mirror.

BLEARGHH.

my friends have recieved their exam time tables SAVE FOR ME. cause i was absent when i went for jc syf. ok so big whoop. the whole world knws when their exams are except for me. wee hoo. my exams are all in july. when? i dont knw.

wrote in my journal during econs. im always writing something somewhere. blearghhh. and then fauzi tried to take a peek and i told him off. whatever. im such a sadist. im torturing him slowly with my silence and cold shoulders. jules babe told me that he asked her what was wrong with me. well NOTHING. i just dont like the sight of you and your nonsense mat ways.

during pe me and jules ran off to get the ball to play capt ball. yeah well she passed by the group playing soccer and fauzi so kpo go and follow her. so i shouted to her and told her im not going. whatever lar ehh. theres nth to talk out abt this sweetie. i just dont like him. IGNORANCE IS BLISS. it really is.

and li ling. dont knw lar she. if she did that to gain attention from people so that she'd have someone to eat lunch with. yeah well she did great. at the expense of a teacher's ridicule. so irritating. this people! SO IRRITATING~! arghhh!

all i do now is sleep sleep sleep in class. i have never done this before in my whole life. usually all i do is close my eyes and lay down. but now im SLEEPING~! still got time to dream all. bahh. sleep in the bus to school. sleep on the bus on the way home. sleep during lessons. sleep during break. im just so tired. TIRED~!

i guess its only just that i listen to people's problems now that i have bugged them enough for the past few weeks. sometimes when people flood me with smses my phone will jam and die. sheesh. but thanks to all these lovely lovely people.

got back at 9.05. those idiots at the bb polyclinic bus stop. 'eh eh he interested in you.' like get a life idiots. i have a stupid bus to catch. i have a long day tmr. and i have a long night ahead of me. sports heats tmr. ive been blowing off floorball. this is sick. i need to get my life together. and what do i do? im slowly torturing my body to death.

ive signed up for so many things its unbelievable. interschool jc debate. two writing competitions. econs tutorial. dragon boat. obs. and whatever shit else i cant remember. if its ever possible to die from lack of sleep that may just happen one day. and the week is flying past again. ARGH~!

guide me mr jj. i need u now ever so bad. i thought i saw you today. my heart skipped a beat. but nopes. it wasnt you =(. sighh.

and you! ive got nothing to say already. ONLY THINK OF YOURSELF. ok lar. whatever lar ok? people stop bugging me with trivial matters. i have more things to worry about. i have 2 bloody essays and a malay presentation due tmr. projects projects projects. bleahhh.

I NEED SLEEEP! *fondly. and i need you mr jj. muax!

riahh ranted at 9:58:00 PM