Wednesday, May 04, 2005
i ignored him today. so why do i feel so heavy? bleahh. me and jules didnt even glance at him today. we laughed by ourselves. joked amongst the two of us. hung out after school at west mall with sarah renu and fauzi.
and sarah and renu squealed the whole place down thinking that me and fauzi got a thing for each other. sweats.
today i saw the worse side of fauzi. how could i ever think that i had feelings for a guy like him? i told him abt jules and how she expects at least he prays five times a day and stuff. never mind the drinking and the smoking. and today i found out that he did drugs too. marijuana ecstasy and ice. my god. fauzi started being sensitive and jealous and suspicious of me and jules since we started talking among ourselves. demanding to knw what we were talking abt and stuff.
i saw how he talked and acted like a typical malay.
and it irks me. how down he gets when he cant figure out whether he wants to get on with julie or not. like so childish can? want den want lar. dont want den dont want lar. why is he upset? cause he doesnt want to change for her. duhh. what does that say abt him?
he was irritating. very. he not only talks bad abt every other person he meets he also thinks highly of himself. who knws what he says abt me to other people. but whatever. i dont care.
im glad i met someone like julie. she's a great person to be with. and i wished when i speak malay with them id be more fluent and stumble less. hehs. good for my malay lars. =). everytime talk rubbish with them.
omg! i met cheryl fuhua today! OMG! like shocked siaa. saw her on sat. gave her a hug. saw her today! and gave her another hug. heee. she always call out to me when she sees me. she's damn friendly man. such a change from the very first meeting with her. she was so DAO back then. but now! wahh like never meet in donkey years sia. talked so much! friends waited so long for me. hehs.
talked abt mi. talked abt jc life. band. syf. fuhua. bm. JUBILANCE! omg. i miss her like mad sia. hehs. and i dont even talk to her before that. she's so superr =). hope to see her arnd soon man.
jc syf tmrr! ponning sch! so excited.. NOT! wth?! wency last min say no tickets. this is so stress. how am i gona get the regulars + my friends in with only 2 cards?! grr. and i was all set out to enjoy myself sia.
IDIOT LAR THE JAMES BARNES CONCERT. damn excited when i saw the post. early early go and call. 'im sorry all the tickets have been distributed u can try the door sales.' duhhh. who'd not collect their tickets on that night. james barnes lehhhh. OMG! but hilmi will try to get for me tics. he owe me man the dude. big time.
i mentioned tokyo kosei winds' coming to singapore and i wanted to go so bad. 'so what? its not as if st pats cant sound as good as them.' idiot right? gwh. big deal ah? not u lorr. UR JUNIORS. bleahh. ppl these days.
i cant seem to stay trouble free for one day. im a trouble maker. thru and thru. tskk. will there be a day when i dont get into trouble? sure if i stay out of it. haha.
i'll be a good girl. i'll work hard at it. make each day sth to be proud of. =)
richard dude is in town. my gooooood friend. hehs. days of tennis swimming and pooling are looking brighter by the day. =). miss him loads.
so psyched abt sat! am just so so so so psyched! oh gosh! =PpP.
riahh ranted at
9:24:00 PM
