Tuesday, April 19, 2005
'whats wrong riah?'

'riah whats wrong?'

'riah are you ok? ur not urself today.'

whats wrong with me?! *bewildered. i dont knw. *shrugs

'riah. you look pale.'

HUH?! freaky fridayy! =). today my energy gone sia. stupid 2.4 run. wah lao my sch is really steady abt this napfa thing. passing time for girls is 18.30 mins. but they dont want any c grade and below siaaa. only a's and b's. idiot. lucky i pass. HAHAHAHA. dont think millennia building old den we all very what hor. this school really train ppl like siao. u imagine top for napfa in whole of singapore lehhh.

when i get my first silver in 10 years of education i alter BIG BIG wear to town. laugh at me some more la. i den laugh at u larrrr. hehs.

den after that things just went wrong. everything went wrong. very lethargic. very weak. LOL too weak to even eat sia. how can?! riah lehh. sheeesh. den i go play with the school cat. aww. too lazy to change. i was admiring myself in the mirror while washing up. *dreamy sigh. riah riah. soooooo chiooo. =)

i think i am. HAHAHA. seriously larrrr. shucks.

gp lecture. erghh. i hate lecture. i hate big groups. so hard to concentrate. so i draw draw. draw draw everywhere. =). den that time of the month came lerr.

me: eh sarah/siti/judy/li yi/shikin got [whispers] pad?
sarah: nope. julianne got pad?
julianne: EH WHO GOT PAD ARR? RIAH NEEDS IT!!

lol. ok lar so many nicely wrapped packages came down my way. all with nice little msges. dont knw who it is but thanks so much. i dont need so many actually. =)

think i so smart. went to clementi den je to get my school things. ended buying a lot of nonsense sia. =PpP. waste moneyy siaa. den stuck. 3 plus lerr and refat say no bus to macritchie from je. die die. he say take 157 from bb. no time lerr. so took train. =). fell asleep. first time i really like dead duck siaa. really sleep until miss dont knw how many stops. so idiotic.

in the bus on the way there. julie called me to tell me that she got accepted into ech and that she didnt knw if she should go. and worse she had to give an answer within half an hour. much as i wanted her to stay i cant be selfish. since its sth she really wanted to do i told her to go for it. i dont knw whats her decision till now. =(. i will miss her tho.

why do ppl close to me always go? whats their purpose of coming into my life? to give me that short-lived happiness? what for sia? id rather not have this painful goodbyes. they dont rawkk at all. =(.

today i was off. reached late. no warm ups. straight away geared up and did throws. after tt went into games. hello oh please. ur not even captain. what right have you to say me sia. if there's anyone who should give orders it should be me idiot. and what did they do after that? they ordered me out of the court. WTH?! just because one day i dont perform.

even then i wasnt upset at all. just sat there and stoned. a lot of ppl came up to me concerned. not my bubbly self today. today so scared of flying balls.

'whats wrong riah?'

*shrugs. dunno. hehs. next time will be better kayys. im just so out of it today. stupid 2.4.

riahh ranted at 9:14:00 PM