Friday, April 01, 2005
i dont really feel like blogging now. sth else is definitely on my mind. but okayys. today was a really good day. as usual homesick again and again. *yawns. but then after sch i was like hanging out with these 5 girls. and we were playing cards. lol. as in old maid and snap and heart attack. and they are just a bunch of crazy ppl =). cant decide whether to call us dead poet's society or the mad bananas or sth like that.

asked to sketch a mouse during gp. lol. i intended to draw mickey mouse. but only attempted the head. even so. it DIDNT look remotely like a mouse. yes. played a little game. pretty fun. will try it out with my friends soon.

im in yellow house. house meeting today. urghh. so late already and didnt want to go ito LT3 alone so i ended up with some of them in LT4 for red house. lol. it was just damn boring and draggy larr. went home with becca alyson and charlotte. first time not sleeping on the bus.

u notice the lack of hahas and hehes and LOL? shucks.

dead hungry. ate a bit of dinner. came online. and suddenly. like just being at home is so uncomfortable. mum asked hows me and refat. so tempted to say we broke up. but there's this thing inside of me tt refuses to do so. refuses even now to face up to it. and just admit it and say 'hey we broke up.' its just hard. something in me that hopes everything will fall back into place.

but it wont. at least not for now. maybe a few years down the road. it'll pass right? and then we can pick up where we left off. cause i miss him. there i said it. i miss him. yes i do. i really do. but no of course i wont go into an emotional and detailed entry. im trying to get past this remember?

even so. saw someone tag his board. harmless tag. but still. stirred up this pangs of jealousy within me. like. hey who are you man? what did refat tag? what did he say? does he like her? shucks. its been almost a week. the coping thing is getting better larr at least. but still this naggy thing inside. stubborn as a mule u knw i tell you. keeps on hanging on to me like a heavy weight.

i just hope it'll pass soon. on a brighter note. im meeting the rest tmr. i hope nth changes. =)

riahh ranted at 7:05:00 PM