Sunday, April 17, 2005
i dont knw what im doing here anyway. i got my shoe today. finally. its nice. grey and pink. i had a very unappetizing lunch at sakura. please dont go. the service sucks. the food sucks. everything sucks. im not complaining. i just want my money's worth.

thats the thing abt singaporeans. we're just too plain demanding. maybe because we're far too much pampered not by our parents but by the government. sheesh. how can anyone go against the government when everything's delivered to you on a platter?

its one of those days when i have so many things i wanted to talk abt but nothing comes to mind.

im really looking forward to band days now. im really psyched. just the mere thought of having refat back in the band again really gives me the drive. not the runnings. or the constant reprimands at the percussion section. or the waiting while he works on a section. but just his presence makes everything ok.

he's someone special to all of us. to me too. not the bf kind larr. sheesh. there was this connection btw us and him. even tho he didnt get personal with us. no lunch together and stuff. no hanging out. no pool bowling whatever. every second spent together was spent in the band room. but yet there's this immediate connection. immediate bond. dont you feel it too?

and then i think of unity too. im glad that our ties have not broken. i hope we still do get to play for their concert.

since mom got me the concession pass a few days ago. i feel that the whole world is in my hands. LOL. i keep taking buses like nobody business. even if for such a short distance. it feels good and i like feeling good. in a way my confidence has increased with my recent weight loss. i feel good knwing im looking better.

but there are times when i feel inferior.

im sick of ppl coming up to me and asking 'hey/yo/hi, how was syf?' why not just go straight to the point and ask 'hey what did ur band get for syf?' you actually think it sounds politer and nicer when in fact its so bloody obvious what ur underlying motive is. if we're worse of than you you say 'oh its ok. dont worry. im sure you guys did well. try harder for o7. jia you!' but if we did better all u say is 'congrats.'

when i tell you we didnt go you act all drama mama 'what? but why?! why?!' and you wont leave it. oh please. its very irritating.

im craving for chocolate ice creams and a movie. i hope wed's free. hehs.

riahh ranted at 7:22:00 PM