Sunday, April 10, 2005
news travel fast. and i hate it. please if anyone asks. just say im attached AGAIN. but u dont knw who the hell my boyfriend is. cause i dont appreciate ppl coming up to me when im in a rush.

him: hi. how are you
me: fine. tks. [rushinggg to mrt]
him: err. hows life for you?
me: fineeeeeeeee. [exasperated]
him: so when are you free? we could hang out sometime.
me: ...
him: are u single?
me: yeahh. [BIG MISTAKE]
him: so how i got chance or not? tell me la so i can date you.

wth? please. not even a chance. i dont think u even fit into any of my criteria. ur not exactly eye candyy. and whats with all ur disgusting BODY hair. arghhhhh.

band was pretty ok today. enjoyed myself a little. loved it especially when the conductor picked on me. like hey u knw he's paying attention to me. ok larrr. getting used to bach now. but im still tiny compared to the rest. playing first some more =P. so highh siaa. still can still can. next week performance. didnt knw anything until today siaaa. repeated the same part over and over again until i got all the notes and rhythm right. shucks. heee. in band. time always passes. sighh.

no jia yi today =(. today was raj and ming yang! hahaha. they damn lame larr. and cute also. esp raj. wanted go jp banquet eat siaa. mr han treating me cause he made me wait almost 45 mins for him -_-". whatever. end up go my sch there and eat. and oh please really nothing to eat there sia. all chinese. and mr han says he cant remember the fact that im malay.

so idiotic.

so yeah just drankk. erghhh. hungry hungry! =(.

i really dont know what to make of mr han. maybe because i dont spend time with him that often. and tts why i percieve him to be a pretty ok person. but he just gets pretty emo at times. and he likes to point out tt he's a very sickly person and he goes to the hospital and stuff. oh please. like that will earn him any symphathy from me. and he talks so highly of ms tan and refat one moment but hints that he doesnt like this or that abt them the next. he appears well liked but really not many likes him?

dun wish to knw.

long sia the bus ride to woodlands. but i was still early. bought tickets then eat cheesy wedges. i was expecting fat to tie up his hair. was a little disappointed he didnt. sighh. spongebob was a let down. some parts were damn funny and cute larr. cant help laughing. like really sound coming up from my mouth and stuff. HAHAHA. but overall pretty boring. the kids were enjoying themselves at least. sheeesh. plus the cinema was coldd.

full. still early. he sent me home. ahh well. at least talked larr. not so awkward anymore. at least we lasped into companionship silence and not some awkward silence that'd stretched forever and ever. and at least now im in more control of myself =). many times i just wanted to do sth stupid. but ah well.

im just restless. im sleepy. im tired. but i have homework to do and a hamster to buryy. sighh. i just wana sleep and never wake up =(. arghh.

riahh ranted at 9:45:00 PM