Saturday, April 02, 2005
yes up and up early in the morning. early night last night.

at times like last night do i finally realize what kind of person refat really is and how he lives his life. not in a bad way of course. he has a bad day at work. he comes home still fuming. and then he deals with it on his own and goes to bed. for now. he doesnt have to worry abt pacifiying an over emotional gf who jumps at his throat if he doesnt msg her.

i have a feeling he has many many days like this before. just that the gf was still there. and back then he used to tell me if any of his bands had problems. but that wasnt his way of dealing with it im sure. he told me simply because i asked.

last night i saw for myself the real him. how he really is when he gets frustrated. but him being him he has a high level of tolerance. but its wearing thin.

last night has shown me the reality of it all. how harsh life really is. and how different ppl take a different approach to it.

last night has slapped me in the face. showing me how unbelievably shallow and unreasonable i was. my refusal to accept the fact and move on has hindered my progess in coping with it.

take care my friend. i hope whatever happens u'll walk through it just fine and walk out unscathed. btw. you still owe me spongebob.

have a nice heffalump day =)

riahh ranted at 9:28:00 AM