Friday, April 29, 2005
im feeling like crap today. its been a month and im just lying to myself. what fauzi rubbish all?fauzi is my second yew hao. he's just someone i tease all the time and chill out with. he can never be refat.

and refat. been thinking negative thoughts abt him. convincing myself what an idiot he really is.but why? why so eager to move on? why so eager to forget me?

whats wrong with me? today ok what. shopping with fauzi all. chilling at his place with his fam and pearl. why the hell are u feeling so depressed?

tired is it riah? not enough sleep den u thinking stupid thoughts is it? maybe u should stop reading his blog u knw. it may help. but no riah. u damn dumb. u knw already curiosity will kill ah bee and yet u still read.

now how? dumb right you? still so bloody dependent on him. if he never do anything wah u happy like mad. when he mention something u dont wish to see u damn depressed.

i think u suck riah. YOU SUCK!!

get a life and move on larr.

im just damn grateful to jules babe and miyo. for seeing me thru this period of GREAT DEPRESSION.

_girlunknown __ -- I AM A GEEEEEENIUS! BOW BEFORE ME! says:you're strong, unlike me. of course you can deal. you didn't cry. you held on. you did normal things. you were still riah before, during, and after. i think. you're handling it pretty well. build a wall that surrounds those things that remind you of him. mental wall. just block it away.

WhItesnOoZy -La PrinCesA JuzTa- pLeez b good ! says:another btch....hu cud dat be... come on babe...u've gotta be strong aite... u've got me n fuzzy n farah! probabLy juz a test fer ya from HIM. its weally weally hard to get over... if u needta cry...just do it babe...cry oL nyt..let it out. u'll get over it by h0ok or by cro0k...its juz a matter of tym... slowly...

fauzi's msg:
Hey whats wrong? How come suddenly? You can talk to me abt it if u want to u know. This kinda thing is normal, he's a guy. moves on faster. you dont worry. it may take longer, but you'll move on too.. dont be so down k, i'll always be your bitch :)
great friends i have huh? im feeling just a wee bit better. oh gosh. God's story isnt going the way i want it to. hey im a writer too. dont i get a chance to edit it? =(

its like such a major publication sia. practically letting the whole school knw that i have broken up and im damn depressed abt it. im bonkers. =(

riahh ranted at 10:21:00 PM