Saturday, March 12, 2005
yest was the first concert tt i had attended in a long time. still wasnt in the mood. met queen in the train. a little awkward when we met with clarence and amos. but what the heck. too lost in my thoughts to really care. met a lot a lot of ppl there. queena wanted to see zhencong but when i called him he was already sitted. r-23 i still remembered. ours was e-11 to -17. the best seats in the world.

two rows from the stage. as described aptly bt queena 'sit here listen what? the players tapping their feet?'

and yes. we heard a lot of winds. saw their fingers moving. seats were very bad. but at least it gave me a different perspective. up close and personal with the winds. no one was watching the conductor. the flautist who moved a lot had very bad teeth. but he had a drop dead nice tone. yuppie. but we cant see anyone else from there. so its pretty sad.

its nice hanging out with them at concerts for a change. at least i dun have to shush shush while listening. dun have to shush shush when inside i have so many observations tt i wana share. so many oddities i noticed and wanted to point out. and when i hear a piece of almost flawless music i want to express my pleasure.

im young. im curious. and im still learning.

concert was fabulous. absolutely fab. just sat there and drown myself in the music. first half was such a pleaser. opening piece was dynamic. passing of melody. sweeet. phantom simply brought back memories. i keep thinking 'oh this is the part where christine came in'. the winds have such beautiful parts. why alumni dun wana try this part out? queena brought it up but deric said 'on no its too hard'. get lost la deric.

the only piece i really fell in love with tt night was romanza. what a beautiful song. indescribable. simply beyond words. i wish alumni would dare to venture and try pieces like this. imagine the pride i would feel when i hear the applause for my alumni band after completing such a piece. feeling is priceless.

second half was a little shaky. but good nontheless. armenian dances was interesting also. grr. i wana play them!

erik anderson is cute. gorgeous. drop dead. me queen and wency were gg crazy over him. and amos couldnt understand why. shucks. girl stuff la.

dinner at kfc clementi. last customers of the day. let them talk. i enjoyed my 'solitary' dinner. too stuffed to talk. home sweet home after tt. kenny looked so ke lian. =X.

i still felt weird. talking to him. or any other form of contact with him. just. doesnt feel right. almost felt normal again. at night when i was msging him while rolling. just felt funny again this morning.

band was funn. like totally. in a way it kept my mind off him. buzzing in the lift. and just after a few seconds muscles started to ache. in big big trouble. im getting back on track anyway. today's prac was fruitful. at least getting a bit of tone. stamina still very weak. but worse of all is my pitching.

i cannot hear the notes anymore. i have forgotten what they sound like. dang. gota start from scratch sia. and recognizing my notes is so difficult. grrr. but patience and i will definitely get there again.

*hums follow the river.

what a beautiful song i tell you. short and sweet. cant wait till band again tmr. hope we're playing tt piece again.

mitchell was being such a pain in the butt. and now zoey also. grr. they kept trying to catch me off guard by asking at the stupidest moments 'do u like refat? do u have a boyfriend? are u sure?'. so irritating. and while i was washing my mouthpiece mitchell opened my bag to look for my hp! GRR. lucky i came back quickly. *shakes fist. den what mubarrak tell me different story. say what refat liked me once before. surely its azman lor. another one.

i asked mitchell to bring down the stand cause it was too high and i cant see ms tan conducting. and he was like 'just now why refat conduct u never ask us to bring down?' -_-". really a pain in the butt. big big pain. but i made two new friends today. and his name is jonathon and err some malay guy from the tbones.

i wana go back not to play. but to teach also. i miss teaching. sheesh. *misses band.

when my phone goes off. my heart skip a beat. hoping tt the msg is from him. but ahh shucks. he's busy with band now. for the whole week. =(

yup. will be up all night again. cant seem to sleep much these few days.

good night honeyy. i miss you.

riahh ranted at 12:13:00 AM