Thursday, March 24, 2005
first day of school today. not conducive la the campus. orientation is like so lamee. always the same thing. group together. think of group name. group cheer. bla bla. den cannot lose the group card/flag. like please. its so boring. especially since our og has their cliques already. all the typical malays together. all the typical beachay lians together. guys together. yada yada.

me? aww shucks. im with jeron and anish. lol. they are both lamezz ppl. VERY. hahahaha.

yeah. today banana talk many many. and i bloody hate it can? like everything's been going ok for so long. den suddenly think about this kind of thing. like want to tell me to be prepared in case never together or what la. no need to say until so serious. yeah the matter is serious i knw. keep the situation light. easier to absorb. its so hard to grasp things. im trying to understand. like sch. you. band. everything. all trying to get my attention.

takes time la. meantime. no more banana talks. you and i back to normal. after syf. go out watch movies like normal. go eat eat. go band. go love love. normal stuff. i have sch. u have sch. and you have band. if you want more time for band. then go ahead. surely its not that hard to sms?

im just confused. i dont want to keep thinking what if what if. cause its stupid and thinking is a big bloody waste of time. if happen den happen. yeah prepare myself now will make things easier later. if happen later. den learn to deal later. wont be so stupid to commit suicide all la. hurt is hurt la. cry cry all also will tell you mehh? it doesnt affect you so why do you care?

i will show you. i will show you im strong. even if im not inside. i wont let it affect my life. i will learn to move on. but it wont be easy forgetting what we shared together. you want me to think like adult? ok. i TRY to think like adult. sometimes it would be fair if you brought urself down to my level and see things my way.

show a bit more emotions. show me you still care.

i still love you babes. i really do. mUahhh.

riahh ranted at 12:08:00 AM