Tuesday, March 01, 2005
whole day out with queen. hao. and gin. den afters met with kelvin and azman. went to nafa. went to np. went to sp. den to mdis. because i didnt expect anything. i am till now still positive abt my results. rather than regret. im looking on the brighter side of life and remaining optimistic. with only four credits and no math. im pretty stuck. with a 7 for math suzhen showed me some courses tt are available. but i lacked one more credit.
unbelievably. i am eligible for lots of ci courses. commerce. arts. science. u name it. i got it. but i am not interested anymore. why waste time? i dun wan to be in the academic line anymore. when i got to nafa. i thought of taking the diploma in multimedia. tough. but im not afraid of hardwork. im pretty much interested in it. took application forms for diplomas in teaching home ec or music. but ive not tt much interest.
no one would understand how i felt the moment they told me tt i wasnt eligible for early childhood. i wanted to cry. and suddenly i felt that everything was going wrong. time was passing too slowly. everything was too loud. i felt tt there wasnt hope left. the only course tt i had set my hopes on. the only course tt i had wanted to do so bad. i had put in so much effort to read up on it. to download the sae form. complete it. and submit it by hand.
and then i talked to someone who told me tt it was possible to go somewhere for a year. resit the failed subjects and then ask for a transfer. and suddenly i was filled with hope again. im not gona let my tears fall. im gona take it my stride. im gona do all i can to get to that course. even if it means retaking my math. nth to be embarassed abt. ur studying for urself. not for ur friends. there's nth wrong with retaking math.
mass comm at mdis. same one as honeyy i think. not concerned abt the price. but a completed degree within 3.5 years? im scared. i feel that its a step too big to take. im not ready. i was unsure but again its sth which i have interest in. journalism. public relations. im in.
but i think i have made up my mind a little. i will take time off. get some work experience at a childcare centre. resit my science and math. and re-apply again next year. i wont miss much. its ok to go in a year late. i really want to do early childhood. and if my interest falter. at least with my math. i have a wider range of courses to try for. =).
tears of frustration may fall. but i wont let anyone see it.
its good to share ups and downs with the ppl who are close to you. it felt good talking things out. sharing opinins. cheering each other up. among ur band mates. ppl who have exactly the same grades as you. we are all in the same boat. more or less. love them loads. azman was so quiet through out. i feel sad for him. he worked so hard. he did so well. he has all b's and one c and he failed math. and he was only eligible for 3 ite courses. =(.
still had time for photos today. argh. dun look too good but ah heck. we had fun. =). i hope queena has more choices. she and azman are exactly in the same boat. hope their journey is smooth sailing. but queen has nafa to fall back on. and early childhood as well. hope they work out.
during dinner i remarked tt its gona be sad cause we'll never get to hang out anymore other than the usual sats. during 'alumni'. =(.
im gona work hard. i promise.
riahh ranted at
10:56:00 PM
