Monday, March 21, 2005
wanted to go out with honeyy today. but mum's been nagging me abt coming home late so id better not risk it. wanted to go out with mai and mum to the food fest at suntec but ended up spending the day with yew hao. =). yupps. as usual talk talk talk. went tiong to develop photos. den headed to suntec on our own. lots of food. but not much stuff tts halal. anyways. bought apple strudel. portugese egg tarts and char siew sth. lol. yeah ate fish balls. crab balls. prawn balls. drank mango ice. yeah eat eat so much.

rotiboy coffee bun is just so yumm. i really cannot believe the taste. its just so good. its like soft and warm. and yum. and just. yum. wana let honeyy try it sometime. its sooo goood! =)

suntec's kfc just sucks la. but then i had a craving for two piece chicken. so yeahh. ate that. and it sucked. YUCK. ok fine. no more. too much kfc these days. tskk tskk. chilled at raffles place starbucks. and we talked abt having a shop next time. he reminded me of ns. so i told him while he whiled his time in there. i'd keep the profits. arent i a good friend? =).

im so afraid. honeyy keeps bringing up banana talks. =(. i dont knw why he suddenly brings it up. he'll suddenly say that he's such a lousy boyfriend. keeps on saying that he doesnt have time for me. no time for gf but still want. i dont want him to talk like that. apart from scaring me. there is one other reason.

it makes me think.

and i dun want to think. i keep thinking of what honeyy said to me last night. i keep thinking 'what if? what if i really find another guy worthier than him? what if i really do develop feelings for another guy?'. i dun wan to think what ifs. i dont want to think like this. if honeyy had never brought this up i wouldnt be thinking like this. honeyy is a good person. i dont want to lose him.

and then he told me today that he bluff ppl. want girlfriend but no time for me. i said it was ok. i mean we get to go out once a week. i get to see him more often now that i always go down to unity for pracs. we sms every night and stuff. but he said its not a lot.

i agree too. its not a lot.

but im learning to deal with it. baby its ok. i knw im unreasonable at times. i knw i throw a lot of tantrums over the littlest things. i always get upset over everything. but baby im learning to deal. last time i couldnt deal with u having no time for me. now its ok ah. i get to see you once a week. i see you during unity pracs. and at least u wish me good night. *tears.

i love you a lot babe babe. really i do. after all these times. u still make me feel nervous when ur around. u still make me smile when we're together. u make me feel wanted babes. you make me feel like a total queen. like what u told me so long ago.

dont leave me babe. no matter how upset we get. u promised. mUahh.

riahh ranted at 10:24:00 PM