Tuesday, March 08, 2005
guilt. such a strong emotion when u have done sth wrong. tts what i felt when i read keng lu's blog. could be she was just twisting and turning her words making it seem that she was the poor hurt little bird and yew hao was the big black crow who had hurt her. and all tt crap abt the bond tt was broken or whatever. it may seem that i had instigated hao to go against her. sheesh. dun wana think abt it.

yest was really upset. big big thanks to rence and queen for their advices. two totally opposite advices but nonetheless. it helped loads. =). avoidance wont help u to solve any problems. so yes i plucked up my courage and talked to honeyy. and what do you knw? everything is turning out fine. yay! =). me and honey have a special relationship. so i gota learn to understand and accept that we cant compare ourselves to the rest. yupps.

went to gran's hse today to deliver some stuff. and i guess she misses me. =(. i wished i could speak better malay or mandarin for goodness sake. so i can communicate better with her. i knw she wanted me to go in and talk with her. =(. i was so bad. i didnt even go in and talk talk with her. just gave her the things. chatted with her awhile abt studies. and told her tt i was applying for mi at toh tuck. she gave me 200 bucks just for passing o's. SHEESH. like she needs the money more than me. i told her i didnt want them. 50 would do if she insisted. but she said no. awwww. she dotes on me so much. then i turned to left. she asked me to study hard. be a good girl and help mum with work arnd the hse. tell me to listen to mum. dun be so naughty. =(. someone teach me mandarin please! so can talk talk more with her.

cherish your grandparents or any other elderly. u may find them a nuisance once in awhile but you never knw whats troubling them. they dun like to let on whats troubling them. like gran hardly goes out nowadays unless its nearby cause she's afraid to tap her ezlink. like if it gives off the red signal. the driver will scold her for holding up traffic or what. sheesh. drivers like tt should be condemned in hell. what goes arnd comes arnd.

i love gran. because of what she gives me. no not the money. her love is beyond monetary value. =)

met hao after tt. apologized to him for all the crap i said last night. he was as usual eating. -_-". a cup of corn this time. gotta call back to band world in the morn. cause the person in charge of the instruments werent arnd. a mr ong and ms siah. ms siah! LOL. maybe my future conductor if i get to ci? *gulps. hahahaha. went sight shopping at daiso. went shopping at giant. LOL. groceries loads. stupid kacang puteh man wasnt there. so cant get nuts. craps. lunch at kfc. again. yummm.

i have astigmatism or whatever. LOL. like double vision the likes? hoho. so gotta get a diff set of contacts. sians. which is more ex. double sians. walk walk in watsons. and yew hao decided to try the new garnier product. =). hope it works well. shoulda bought tt dove chocs there instead of gg to pearl centre to get them. dangg.

inside the mrt on the way to outram. me and hao may seem to have gone stark raving mad. just as we left je yew hao msged me 'the guy on my left looks like refat =D'. i turned to look. huh? dun get it. i told yew hao. he msged me again 'the guy near the pole'. turned as inconspiciously as possible.

and burst out laughing.

craps. its like. nowhere near to refat. LOL. kept glancing at him and break into laughter again and again. im sure the guy knws. we were arguing abt taking a picture of him. but it was so difficult with so many ppl arnd. so yew hao. the one with THE balls. snapped two on the sly. hahahaha. will upload it the minute yew hao sends it to me. =)

i would have asked if i could take a picture of him. but there were too many ppl. LOL.

tiring day. but i enjoyed myself tremendously =). and tmr will be a much better day cause im finally meeting my honeyy! =) loves loves babes! mUahhh. cant wait to see you again.

oh yes a note. tt stupid macd advertisement? oh craps. whats the world turning to? *rolls eyes.

riahh ranted at 9:40:00 PM