Sunday, February 13, 2005
ahh the wonders of internet. sometimes when it isnt working the way it should. frustration builds up and u lash out at the computer. often u start smacking the keyboard. the monitor. or kicking the cpu. the other alternative is to start yelling insanely at the computer in a feeble attempt to revive it. i did neither. i simply seethed in anger and tapped my fingers impatiently while reading a book.

ahh the wonders of reading. by the time i finish a chapter. the page too has finally managed to clear my bulk mail WITHOUT going bonkers. GRR.

i havent been online for two whole days and so many things have happened. it irks me. totally. to have things happen without me knwing. call me a nosey parker. a busybody. whatever. im just not comfortable with it. so attack the issue. not me. many people go around scolding others. because they arent happy abt something tt other people are doing. wake up. dun attack someone just because they did or didnt do sth to ur liking. if said in a pique of anger. fine. if said deliberately to channel ur anger. time to wake up.

grr. I HATE THE INTERNET.

talked to ms chong a lot a lot on friday. she called me down. and we had a bloody serious one on one talk. whoever leaked it out. i dont care. at least i talked to her. i confided in her. i voiced out my opinions. she told me things tt i dun have to tell anybody. and realization dawned on me. so im gg to have a final talk with the gang and a private one with the alumni. sort things out once and for all. and get things over with. its february already. time to start moving on.

had lunch with him after tt. and he bought me the best presents any guy could ever get me. he got me books. tho i much regretted it later. ah wells. they're books. what else is there to argue abt? and there i go. spending the rest of the week huddled under numerous pillows in the comfort of my own home. reading a nice book. havent started on the ones he got me. kinda sayang to read them. re-reading order of phoenix again. amazing. reading a book all over again. its like. 'hey how come i dun remember tt part?'. its almost like reading it the first time.

and of course. who could have forgotten abt that dreadful incident which involved my slipper and utter humiliation? bleah.

if i could ask for anything in the world. it would be to wipe off arrogance and knw-it-all smirks off people's faces. and their characters. tt would be me as well. sometimes being with people who are well knwn in a certain industry. like teaching. or music. or working at starbucks. or whatever. tt doesnt give them the right to start lamenting abt things that wont come to them. they sit at their thrones waiting for people to serve them. not setting abt to lift a helping hand.

some of the teachers tt i have knwn are utterly despicable. i wouldnt elaborate of course. if i was really tt unhappy. i would tell them straight to the face. tactly of course. like what ming has advised. but their posts and how we are related to them is another thing in question.

speaking of ming. tt bastard. whatever. calm. peace. no point getting all riled up. bah. idiots all of them. MING. who said he'd help us in any way he could. load of dung. but whatever. i dont care. i'll talk to him. see what he says. and if he doesnt deny it. an apology is in tow.

bah. vday tmr. how exciting. bought roses from honey. blue oness. hope they look nice. i hope its a deep blue. i have never seen a blue rose before. two stalks at 14. no im not mad. its for a good cause. FINE. its for him and his band. so yes. of course i will help.

i am hungry. as in deathly hungry. i havent eaten anything proper today. and i will stop my yabbering now. and go make sth to eat. toodles all.

riahh ranted at 1:33:00 AM