Saturday, February 19, 2005
i just want to cry. i just want to cry. i just want to cry. i just want to cry.

i said i didnt want to talk abt band. i havent learnt to deal with it yet. give me some breathing room can? one day i was delivered the bad news. and it still hasnt sunk in fully. and few days later ppl start telling me tt i can go back. its ok one. no problem. all settle. i appreciate all ur help. but seriously. i did think tt she could have done it without anyone telling her what to do.

bad news. and suddenly good news. how do u expect me to cope with it? u didnt have to bear ALL tt ms chong told me. every itsy bits abt the band. abt the running of the band. the teacher in charge. abt refat. abt every single damn thing. and im supposed to shut up and keep mum. and her final word is. if u want to do anything regarding the main band. it has to go thru to me first.

go back without informing her? yeah. courting my own death.

i appreciate all ur help. i really do. u guys are the best. but please give me time to deal with it.

especially queena. tks babe. u were the first person i called as soon as i put down with ms chong. really never expected things to be this way. i was really really touched. tks guys.

and yeah CLARENCE. thanks la. u just sit there listen to me crap.

i want to forget abt things for awhile.

think of me.. think of me fondly..

riahh ranted at 12:40:00 AM