Tuesday, January 18, 2005
what have i started? what have i done? is this all my doing again? in that moment of anger have i let my heart rule my head again? spouting nonsense causing no end to all this?

tks to clarence and wency for standing by me all this while. and yes to moo moo too. and no i have said nothing to them. i didnt exaggerate. i didnt add sugar spice and everything nice. i simply told them where to go and look at all the hurtful words tt 'seniors' are writing abt us. abt me. they only tried to redress the wrong.

why are my 'seniors' doing this? what do they stand to gain? why do they hate refat so much? what has he done to them? all he did was to mould the band singlehandedly into a decent band. not a top band. just a decent band with disciplined and humble members. and still ppl like shintya who used to fight so much for the band are saying such harsh cruel things.

what have we done to you? is it wrong for us to express our gratitude our happiness openly? its a free world ppl. let us say whatever we want. the internet is not urs alone. why are u so against us? as seniors shouldnt u be happy for us? tt finally u can tell ppl 'hey. i was from bukit merah band.' are u jealous? i really duno. its sth stupid to be jealous abt. we are all adults. shouldnt we start behaving like one?

refat gets on ur nerves? for doing what? he doesnt even knw u until u started humiliating urself on his blog.

what hurts me the most is that in a way. i have caused pee to turn against refat. by blowing up such a small matter. refat and pee were so close before but because of all this. sigh. have i opened my big mouth again? why cant i just learn how to tolerate and shut up?

oh craps. this is stupid. now thinking back. i dun even knw why i said all those things in the post.

will there ever be an end to this?


riahh ranted at 1:55:00 AM